What is wrong with the world? Why am I not allowed to be happy? I knew I hated summer for a reason. All this drama. Listen up everyone, Nick loves me, and I love him, there is nothing you can do or say that will change that. I really don't care what anyone thinks, our relationship is none of your bussiness. Keep your lies to yourself, I have ( Read more... )

I hate myself. I thought about it, and I really do. I think that's why no matter how much bullshit he puts me through. All he has to do his make that stupid pouty face and say he's sorry and I take him back. He promises this time will be different. He says he won't hurt me anymore, but we all know how much that means. I'm not sure if I can go ( Read more... )

I'm reinventing myself. I'm going to be the Ashlei I always knew I was. I'm just going to forget about him completly. Well maybe if he would stop calling that would be easier. They say it's human nature to want the one thing you can't have. I will be his one thing. I am off limits as of now. Call all you want to, but I WON'T fall to my knees ( Read more... )

I lost it all. All in one day. My boyfriend, my friends, my happiness. Everything. Nick and I got back together after he said he didn't want to have a girlfriend. Then he changed his mind again, and said he couldn't pretend anymore. He said he wanted his space. How much more space could I give him? I just moved 50 fucking miles away. He ( Read more... )

I did it, I admitted my feelings to everyone. I told Patrick I wanted to be with Nick, and I told Nick I wanted him back. Patrick said he wasn't going to give up, and Nick said he didn't want a relationship right now. He said he wasn't ready for a serious relationship. Why couldn't he tell me that 2 fucking years ago!? Now I'm all alone. I ( Read more... )

I can't blame you for being you, but you can't blame me for hating it. I fucked everything up. Now I'm dying for human contact, and you won't answer the phone.

I redid the layout on my LJ. check it out. I'm hot. Who am I kidding? I'm all narcisitic over nothing. I'm so bored, and I can't sleep. I know it's like almost 3 in the afternoon, but I should sleep, I have to work tonight. I burned a cd for Patrick? Do you think it's too early for mixed cds? Probably is. I think that's my way of purposly ( Read more... )

It's been like forever guys, how have you been? I've been in my cacoon, but now I'm a butterfly. My whole life is different. I'm moving to the middle of butt fuck in about 2 weeks, Nick and I broke up for real yesterday, and I've been seeing this new guy. His name is Patrick and he kind of rocks, but it's still hard to tell how he really feels ( Read more... )

Sorry it's been so long guys, I just haven't had anything to say. I got my GED and a new job. I made a new layout, and I saw Danzig. Other than that my life's been sleepless nights watching Conan and getting paid for it. I work midnights at my new job 11pm - 7am. My skin is all milky colored from lack of sunlight. I'm so super goth sexy now ( Read more... )

I took cutie for a ride in my death cab
she tipped me with a kiss
I dropped her off at the meth lab
before she left she made a Dashboard Confessional
she spilled her guts in Cursive and what's worse is
I can still see her Bright Eyes like Sunny Day Real Estate
Oh my, in the funny way this feeling takes me so high, but there's no chance
my little ( Read more... )