Makeup can hind the sleepless nights of crying.
Smiles can hind the tears.
Laughing can hind that im not okay.
But nothing can hind the fact that.
My heart is broken. Im sick of i love you.
Im sick of idks.
Im sick of trying to get something i can never have.
I need someone to love me.
I need someone to care.
I need someone who can be ( Read more... )

Im totaly lost with out you.
I cant think.
I cant sleep.
I cant eat.
Im a mess.
I don't get it.
Everything was gone downhill.
Since the day you left.
Plaese come home.
Come home soon.
I miss you.
I miss summer.
I miss your kiss.
Life sucks right about now.
I hate this.

I cant live without you. Ive tired. I love my ( Read more... )

I was looking at pictures.
And I found one of you.
I looked at it forever.
Rememebering our good times.
All our laughting together.
And all the time you made me cry.
All the times I was in your arms.
It made me miss you.
Gosh.
I have to get over it.
Im over it.
Right?

Im already over it.
Why waste my time crying and bitching.
THERE IS NO POINT.
So I went out with jimmy to dinner.
I felt like crying.
We went to the cheese cake factory.
Gosh its not the same without him.
Its the one in boston.
Which made it even worse.
And we sat in the same seat, as we did.
I thought I was going to fall apart.
But I ( Read more... )

So me and Jonanthan just broke up.
I guess its for the best.
I miss him.
Im going to miss us.
The i love yous
Our goodnights.
Movies together.
Holding hands.
Kisses.
Car rides.
Sitting on his car talking.
Im going to miss all of it.
But....
Broken hearts do heal.
It just takes time.
And thats what i need ( Read more... )

I really needed someone to talk to last night.
And jonathan wouldnt answer.
I have an awsome boyfriend.
arg he makess me mad!
I dont fucking care if the red soxs lost (well i do)
but you should take 10 mins of your time and call your girlfriend
when she really neeeds you.
so i called the other person who i can count on.
and he was like ( Read more... )

School was awomse.
Tryed to go to jonathans soccer game with ben samfa and richie after school. ha
today was an adventure...
we got lost twice and
then the car started to smoke
and it stalled on the road
and we had to push it down the street into a parking lot..
Missed jonanthans game
Ben dad came.
and then samfa richie and i danced in ( Read more... )

WE FINISHED THE SHOW!
Yes.
Thats right.
The colorguard show is done =D
I missed the citations baque thing today.
I wanted to go.
But I had practice.
and if i went.
I was just come home depressed.
Some of those people just make me feel that way.
Like they changed me into a bitch,
I cant go back to that.
Im soo much better now.
I ( Read more... )

Sorry i havent written.
Ive just have been so busy.
I moved today.
Along with doing a show.
and having practice.
goshh i have so much stuff.
i hate it.
but yeah
the show went okay.
we were the only onees in our division
soo we didnt get a place.
im sittin here in my new room.
i hate it.
i want to go back home ( Read more... )

Wow.
This week has been both amazing.
And horrible.
Well, first of all.
I'm still sick which sucks so much.
Jonathan and I got into a huge fight.
Then didn't talk.
So I went over him house on Friday.
And now everything is fine.
O gosh, hes like amazing.
I love him. =)
So we had practice friday night.
And I like died.
Then ( Read more... )