I really can't take anything anymore. Like I'm wicked upset all the time and I feel liek shit. My whole body just hurts and all i want to do is cry. I sat to sit in the bottom of my tub and just die. That's the only place where I want to be. With the water coming down on me and wasting me away. I want to be alone and have no one to care about or to ( Read more... )

So I finally paid for my car today ( Read more... )

Sink or Swim.
you sink deep within these pores
you never seem to wash away
your spirits never ceases to haunt
i taste your kiss threw death
ghost like breath numbs my soul
biter begginings
unfinished endings
slit my throat so I cant breath you in &
i hope you induldge in the hole you left behind
thoughts of you never sleep
cause my ( Read more... )

I messed up. Big time. Oh well. I'm use to it. I'm use to messing up && not being able to do anything right. Why did I have to mess up the one thing I really cared about. Like why did I have to do that. I guess I'm better off alone. One I'm wonder is why I'm so messed up ( Read more... )

He lays next to me ( Read more... )

Hey there Delilah ( Read more... )

So I just pretty much just had the most amazing day ever.
Like I can't stop smiling and being happy.
No one could ruin this for me.
gosh zach & mike are amazing.
I think I've used that word too much.
oh well.
:D fucking just amazing.
I couldn't ask for better friends.
couldn't ask for any better guy.
couldn't ask for a better time.
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Well the last couple of days have been really hard, but of course I've gotten through them. Thank god for friends and my family. Gosh what would I have done with out them. Thanks too everyone who has helped me through this last couples of day. I'm sorry if I was mean or rude to anyone. Anyways. Michael comes home in 122 days. I miss him more than ( Read more... )

Ever feel like you want to just get away. Like right now && never come back. That's how I feel right now. Everything is just going wrong. I just need to get aways && get away fast. I love my friends and family I really do. I wish just wish they could understand. I wish someone would really listen, but of course they don't who ever does. Oh well you ( Read more... )

I don't remember the last time I wrote in this, Gosh it must of been like last year. Oh well. But yeah a lot has happened, and I'm pretty sure no one reads this. It's been 47 days since last time I cut myself, Yes :D be very proud of me because I'm wicked proud of myself. I couldn't of done this without my friends. They have been there for me ( Read more... )