never act like ur happy if ur not... ever

what the fuck happend and why do i feel, like, hollow inside? who am i now? i dont really feel like a different person i jus feel like the old me, only drained of most feeling and emotion. o well i guess im jus bein a whiney bitch and i really should jus shut my fukin trap and let life happen but i wish i knew what the fuck i was waitng for. id ( Read more... )

ok kind of a kool day 2day ( Read more... )

yeah c i kno i said call me and ill tell u about my life but im not even shure wtf happend with my life. honestly i dont think i have a life i think my life has me and i do whatever it says. i dont have really much control in it. o well i guess i belong 2 a life and if it wants 2 fuk me over its going 2 and if its dosent want 2 it wont ( Read more... )

2 be honest this things kinda dumb
seriously if sum1 wants 2 kno wuts goin on in my life,
call me and ill tell u
2 the rest, find sumthin else 2 read
yeah im imature and i fukin love it
l8ter
-jD

yeah sry... 4 lettin u ruin ur life i guess, i kno u say its not my fault and i dont think u can say that its not my fault at all cuz it is at least a lil bit if not compleatly. i let u fall in love with me cuz i fell in love with u and didnt want 2 be in love and alone, but i guess if all u got from me n u bein 2gether in the end was a scar, than ( Read more... )

is there seriosuy even a point to all this?

god i hope i did the right thing, even if it was the end of me. the truth feels good even when it reveals that im an asshole.
i understand if thats the end of me...
sry
-jD

im not quite shure wut i did but w/e it was "its 2 late now", "iv really pissed u off" and "u dont fucking care nemore" so its happend and im not shure if im even sposed 2 try nemore cuz it seems no matter wut i do 2 try 2 make things better i jus "piss u off" more. so now its all on u cuz i dont kno wut 2 do and ur the one whos "fucking pissed off ( Read more... )

words cant even start 2 tell rite now wut im feelin givein im not even shure, its sort of like when ur little and ur finger painting and u decide that u are going 2 be the creator of the best color ever and than u take all the colors of finger paint and start mixing, u dont really come up with nething new in the beginning but u press on. u keep ( Read more... )