How did I get here.... to the past!??

[jay_nine]

Ok, my relationship with Anthony was very mentally abusive. When I finally met John I couldn't believe I was in such a healthy amazing relationship... at last! Then moments like last night happen where I feel like I'm in the same place just different guy. It started off to be such a nice night with his uncle and his friends. Then we went to Steve

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[bellaconfusa]

I'm glad to hear that your brother is OK, it sounds like you had one hell of a night.

Your description of what happened with John reminds me of a relationship I was in about 7 years ago. Things were great when he was sober, but when he drank - he was asshole #1.

I'm not sure if the guy is like that today. I mean... we broke up and barely spoke again. Maybe he matured... we were only 21-22 at the time - so it makes sense that maturity was an issue.

Then again I'm not sure if people change who they are.

Good luck though... it's not easy to be in your position. I guess the best I can say is don't settle for someone who doesn't treat you the way you deserve to be treated, but sometimes when we're lonely and frustrated that's a tough pill to swallow. I get it.

<3

[jay_nine]

Well, things have been amazing and he has been drinking. It's sad, but when I see that he is drinking to get drunk, I have to be on eggshells. It's not often and I'd rather NOT fight, but come on.. how old are we? Well, I really do think if this becomes a huge issue, he would simmer down.

Thanks!