yay! it's finally nice outside! hope you are all enjoying this bee-yoo-tee-ful day. my dad is opening the pool as we speak, so come this week, anyone who wants to go swimming should call me because you can bet i will be LIVING in that water ( Read more... )

but i'm in a pissy mood. i can't help it. well, maybe i could, i guess i don't feel like really trying to right now. and that's my right, dammit ( Read more... )

i don't know why i am so paranoid all of a sudden. he's hung out with her millions of thousands of times before, and i should be absolutely sure that they are no more than friends ( Read more... )

i don't know what i'm supposed to do ( Read more... )

ok...so, daryl and i got in a huge fight yesterday. probably the biggest one we have ever had. no joke. there was a lot of swearing, and throwing the past in each other's faces. it was pretty fucking nasty. this was between, like, 12:30 and 12:50. he cut it short, said "i don't want to have this conversation" then said "love you", and i sort ( Read more... )

so, i am faced again with yet another shitty night of sitting at home doing nothing ( Read more... )

i believe i am stuck in a mental rut. or maybe it's physical...i don't know ( Read more... )

i give up. really, i do. i'm so sick of everything, i think it's killing me. i don't want to go to class, it's so mind-numbing that i just want to stab myself repeatedly with a pen. but then again, to be fair, during my 2 week absence it may have gotten more interesting...i guess we'll find out ( Read more... )

so, to day's the big day! my cousin's wedding, the thing i've been stressing over for the entire week...and i'm still super nervous ( Read more... )

ugh. i had the best night last night, better than i've had in forever. i haven't been going out at all. daryl came over last night though. we ordered subs with the fam and then he and i went to page's, then over to kozmic's to hang out with everybody, then to see a movie. then he slept over ( Read more... )