(insert big rant  about how people suck here, i had writen said rant and just back spaced it all out so you all can just fill in what ya like here... use the word Fuck, hurt and hollow alot and youll get  the gist and flavor of said post)

. todays is one of those days when i just wanna quit everything or get fired, kill me.... if ya dont want me ( Read more... )

So im sitting my bar have a few beirs tonight and i have the laptop so i deside the bar need to fill this thing out and see what we come up with . So here we have what 15 GERMAN men ages 18 to 45 agreed on ,,,,

78% Chris Dodd
78% Barack Obama
77% Dennis Kucinich
76% Mike Gravel
75% Hillary Clinton
74% John Edwards
73% Bill Richardson
70% Joe Biden
52% ( Read more... )

not cut casue well... this is how i got it  ( Read more... )

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OK so went for my MRT today and they tell me my appointment is next week...WTF???? ahhhh well better for me i think and besides after thinking on it for a while i have come to the conclusion that this is no big deal, what ever happens, happens i know for a fact if need be they ain't gonna be chopping into my head till after the new year. cause i ( Read more... )

Yippie.... i get to go  get  another MRI/MRT/MRD there all the same i think. It to see if  Mr Tumor has grown back at all and if so how much...also prolly to check if there is anymore blood on my brain... last MRI i had before i got out they said there was a "red area" but that was normal they said. Ill admit im nervous, i mean i feel kinda ok ( Read more... )

Its been 1 week since they let me out of the Knakenhaus.... i celebrated by working at WDR...yes i know its to early but this is the joys of being self employed... no sick leave pay... no worries though  its been sorted that im just there as a watcher. its good to be human again

J 

So what was suppose to be a week has turned into 6 going on 7 weeks, fuck me.... So much has happened since my last post, when i read it and thought about what I've been through  since then it almost made me wanna cry. There are so many side stories to all of this but first ill try and fill you in on the last 4 weeks.

After Surgery number 2, ( Read more... )

So, they said wednesday... then tuesday night they said friday... then  today they say tommorow....grrrrrrrr... I try to prepair for this the best i can mentally and they seem to wanna make it as difficult as possible, im starting to get surrly... So anyway, i had more blood taken and finally finally they did another MRI  just to make sure all is ( Read more... )

For those that missed earlier post, Mr Tumor has no balls, hes Benign so there will be no eating me from the inside out... MR Tumor  is how ever quite large even after being half removed and  still a very real danger to the vision in my left and only good functioning eye and  he was putting the squeeze on my pituitary glad which pretty much ( Read more... )