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Day 19 - Diary
I posted this on 6 November 2005:-
Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
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Day 16 - Diary
So I've set myself a new goal - once we get out of this self-isolation and stay at home bubble due to COVID-19, I want to be the best version of myself. I'm talking about from the inside to the outside. Inner includes creativity, music, piano, guitar, legal skills, education, journal articles, case studies, self development, patient, peace, faith, ( Read more... ) -
Day 11 - Diary
So I am trying to come off the medications. Mainly Lyrica. I realised the side-effects were getting to me too much and too quickly. I spiral down to a dark place very quickly. Lyrica is well known for causing depression and suicidal ideation. Don't get me wrong, during times like this with COVID-19, I would say everyone is anxious and depressed to ( Read more... ) -
Day 9 - Diary
Today was a slightly better day. Emotionally I'm still extremely blueI had so much work and just so much to do for work so most of my focus went to that. It was good because it kept me distracted. Whether it is the the healthiest choice? Haha, well that's a whole new different topic ( Read more... ) -
Day 8 - Diary
Today was tough.
Not pain wise - but emotionally wise.
The COVID-19 situation has finally hit the people directly around me. Whether it is job losses, or just anxiety at all time high. The uncertainty of tomorrow is killing me bit by bit. When reality slaps you in the face, you realise there is nothing you can do but to suck it upThe loneliness ( Read more... ) -
Day 6 - Pain Diary
So today I broke out of the habit and did not take any pain meds. I am so, so proud of myself. Am I still experiencing symptoms? Absolutely! But I really want to try manage my pain without having to rely on medications so fingers crossed, I'll stay good and continue to fight off the pain. Hopefully by next week I don't need to call this "pain ( Read more... ) -
Day 4 - Pain Diary
Oh today I did very well! I only took 2x 500mg paracetemol with 15mg of Codeine and 1x of Lyrica today! Hopefully my pain is starting to settle down, or maybe I've learnt to manage and live with the pain. But oh my God, this morning, I was still doped up from the 30mg of Codeine and Lyrica I took around midnight before I went to bed. It took me ( Read more... ) -
Day 3 - Pain Diary
Today was a good day! I really tried to minimise my intake of pain meds so I don't want to become an addict (and I know how easy it is to hook onto these drugs and develop a reliance on them ( Read more... ) -
Day 2 - Pain Diary
So I saw another GP this morning to get a second course of anti-biotics and also to talk about the persisting pain. She decided to increase my codeine intake from 15mg to 30mg (well, this will be fun). Hopefully this help manage my pain better. When I went to buy it from the pharmacy, the Pharmacist said to me to write down how much paracetemol I ( Read more... ) -
Day 1 - Pain Diary
Who would have thought that I would have a pain diary as well?
This last week has been so tough. I am in constant pain and I don't even remember the amount of pain killers I've taken in the last 7 days. I've barely gotten a good night sleep and everyday is like an uphill battle. I am strong, but absolutely exhausted and burnt out. Anti-biotics, ( Read more... )