sorry for updating again but I am sooo bored! I'm feeling a little calmer. I took out my aggression on my violin and almost broke it because I played it too hard,(oops) but I feel better. I think I'm going to go take a walk in the woods. It's so peaceful and the sun is starting to set. it feels like a typical summer day even though it's only March ( Read more... )

Can I just say how much I HATE satan right now??? I am just filled with this pure, torrid hatred at him and myself. I hate that I listen to his lies and that he can get the better of me so often. (Kyle thanku so much for telling me about that song, I've been listening to it all day! ) How can God keep loving me, when I'm just crawling on this ( Read more... )

Ok. So today i went to Katie's house cuz there's no school today. We decided to bake cookies and then got into a huge cookie dough fight. (she started it)So we're standing there covered in cookie dough, my hairs a mess and I have this old ratty t-shirt on. Then I turn around, and Mr. you-know-who-man-of-my-dreams friend of Katie's brother is ( Read more... )

I feel like i'm going crazy! I kept pushing God out of the way for so long, wanting to do my own thing, and then he showed me how prideful and headstrong i was being, and showed me that I need strength. It was confusing cuz I didn't think I needed strength. But I can't humble myself when I'm weak. Humbling ourselves is hard, and it takes strength ( Read more... )

I'm not sure how I feel right now. I'm with my sis and dear friend Meriah...oh I love that girl! It was so beautiful out today! ahhhh...I feel torn. I've left one life to pick up the old one I left behind. It feels strange. Good and fresh, with a lot of bittersweetness, but good. I just wanted to thank you guys for all your prayers and ( Read more... )

I'm really tired of how I've been acting lately. I'm a very annoying person. I always act like everything is fine when it's not and the everything inside me builds up until I can't take it any more. I'm so tired, I haven't slept in forever! I almost fell asleep in church today, I was so out of it! And I sound very selfish so sorry about that. ( Read more... )

It was really good to get out tonight, easier to ignore the screaming. We went to the Brainards and tp ed their house, fun stuff! I'm not feeling that great any more and I really don't want to give in but I feel so weak! RRGGHH!!! Sorry that i keep venting on here but it's healthier or whatever than other things. okay, i'm goin to bed now. tooteloo

I feel like I'm in a daze. I couldn't even remember my username when I got on. I feel like someone has died. I cannot believe I had to say goodbye to Brittany today. That was probably one of the hardest things I've ever done. I don't want to have to say bye to Meg or Steph or Alicia. That's too hard. My head feels like it's swimming...I can't think ( Read more... )

ok, Ashley and I agreed that these guys are the most emotional guys we know!!! ahhhh! I got to house sit for the Flores' last night, it was great...lol Well not much going on sept I feel like I am SWAMPED!!!! Not really in a bad way but just in a stressed out way if that makes sense.

Why are we so weak as humans? It's so easy to want to just give up. Jesus promises us strength, but when I feel so weak, and give in to sinful things I wonder where that strength is. I know Jesus is here, but I want to be closer to Him! I know the closer I get to God, the more Satan is going to pull me down, but I have to keep fighting. God does ( Read more... )