Things just can't seem to go right for me at all. I am the one who is always giving more & caring more than the other person. I can't help it, that is who I am and I guess that was the wrong thing to do I guess.  Just when I thought I had found somebody some how you always find a way back to me.  You are constantly there, I just can't seem to let ( Read more... )

Well let's just say jay high school is full of drama and people who run their mouth. Most of them have no reason to but, whatever that is just how I see it. Otherwise school was rough at the beginning but it has smoothed out a lot more and I am glad. I have become friend with people I thought would never be friends. But, we have gotten close and I ( Read more... )

with your hand up my skirt
& my hand at your belt buckle
things couldn't be any better .

Look at us we are at square one again, like things have not changed between us one bit. I did not think that it would come back to this I thought that we made it through our "rough spot" and we were okay and could go on with being us. But, no I had to go and fuck it all up is what you say. I know I did and I live with that everyday I really do. The ( Read more... )

So, these past few weeks have been so amazing, I could not ask for anything more or anything less.  I can not even begin tp describe how it feels to be in your arms again, nothing short of a dream come true is for sure.  It feels so good to just be eachothers company again and just talk and be us again.  You don't even know how good that makes me ( Read more... )

I am very grateful that we are finally getting back to being ourselves. We had been in a rough spot for a long time, and I didn't think we were ever going to get passed it, but we are making progress everyday. Even though we aren't quite back to the way things were, we are still doing the best we can. We are now able to stand being in the same room ( Read more... )

i miss how much we used to talk & i miss all the things we used to do. i miss our dorkiness, the way we used to wrestle till i fell off my bed, how you would sing your stupid songs, i miss fighting over what we were gonna watch, or who was going to have the remote, who was right and who was wrong, i miss our dorky smiles we would give eachother ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME (=

well i'm sorry. i'm sorry for everything i've done.
i'm sorry for existing in your life & causing you to go insane.

So, Ryan left today for california & i miss him. He left at 7 this morning for Manchester. I hope he has a good time and has time to get away from all this drama and everything that is going on. I especially hope things can be set straight with us. I hope he grants the one birthday wish that i want. Lastnight went to the game w/CEARA, wow that ( Read more... )

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love

Ryan Marshall

28 days....(=