hey. it's spring. i have allergies. i tried to force myself to have a crush on a normal person but it didn't work out (normal as in he doesn't have a gf, mental diseases, or any addictions ( Read more... )

so i don't know what i'm doing. if i choose to study abroad, i'd be going to australia from july-november and then somewhere in europe (either london or italy) from jan-may. that sounds so totally amazing but then i'd have to come back to hartford for my senior year and have zero, as in ZERO, friends. or i could move to brooklyn w/ all of my ( Read more... )

i'm so heartbroken. i haven't stopped crying since thursday. and it's not like boo hoo crying, it's like i'm a complete mess crying. i miss my baby so much i could never imagine losing a human child. like all someone has to do is mention a cat and i start going. or i'll just think about something cute he used to do. or how he's no longer my cat and ( Read more... )

so my cat is on death row and i've been crying ever since i brought him to the place. the first night i came home from vegas and he wasnt rolling on my bed i died. i feel like i lost a child ( Read more... )

i haven't eaten or slept in so long. i'm so glad it's thursday and i get to get drunk at five pm w/ two wonderful boys ( Read more... )

i keep on making decisions that not only suck immediately but trigger a whole chain of more things that suck ( Read more... )

so tonight is the first night in weeks that i'm not in the library. i want to feng shui my room because i read a lot about that at barnes and noble the other morning. the chi in here is overwhelming though. ew my room, my life. hopefully once my room has better vibes, i'll be able to do something productive or write in my journ or something ( Read more... )

today i spent a lot of time in b&n in blue back square and bought lots of self help books. i read this one that taught me how to start stopping being a doormat. so i finally treated taylor the way i've always wanted to and she said she hates me. so i guess she hates me. she also said that i'm just jealous of her having a boyfriend so i guess that's ( Read more... )

so last night i was really, really, really tired and all i wanted to do was sleep but danny and taylor were busying being john and yoko and it was so adorable that i almost threw up. anyway i left and got pizza and hung out w/ good friends on gilette and then i went to sherman to hang out w/ jake and it was really great we listened to records and ( Read more... )

so i haven't slept in days. today i was really chipper but then all of a sudden in philos i started not being able to see anything without rocking and i kept on trying to snap myself out of it but it kept on getting worse and worse and everything started bleeding together. once i got over the initial "wtf is this serious" thing it was pretty ( Read more... )