Lost. Confused. Angry. Hateful. Upset. Empty. Broken. Wondering how she can be so fine with everything. Wondering why I can't be. Hating her for getting over "true love" so fast. Hating myself even more for taking so long. Sick of feeling so many things at once. Feeling like an ass hole. Feeling utterly alone. Holding onto what I can ( Read more... )

My life is gone. Over. Now what.

Dreams are so mean. Whatever you try to block out of your mind during the day comes back to haunt you at night. It's like everything you didn't want to think about, for one reason or another, takes form in your dreams just to spite you. It's a fruitless battle, it seems. Try as you might to make yourself think a certain way or act in a ( Read more... )

It's official. I have THE worst fucking roommate ever. He's a lazy, selfish, dramatic little skater punk who's only goal in life is to impress others. He's only at college because his parents made him go. It's sad really. He doesn't go to classes, he lies to his parents about his grades, (which makes complete sense, seeing as how they could ( Read more... )

I can't stop feeling the way I do. Maybe I need more time. I haven't been single in years. Another man touched her lips. I can't complain. I've done worse. I'm yelling at myself on the inside. What am I supposed to feel? I know the answer to that. You can't make yourself feel whatever makes sense. she said it's like a glass hammer. I ( Read more... )

I realized that I missed Boise today. It happened in Music 104 at 8 o' clock. We were discussing a book called "A Short History on Nearly Everything." It basically talks about how the universe and us came to be, from the science point of view. It was during this "discussion" that I came to realize just how close minded people are around here. ( Read more... )

Ok. I just need to let you all in on a taste of my fun fun schedule. First is Music 104 from 8-8:50, followed by a bass lesson 9-9:50. Then I have math 101 (on the other side of campus) 10-10:50. I have an hour break before I go to Music Theory 1 where I get to listen to a bunch of snobby band nerds try to impress each other with their ( Read more... )

This may seem stupid, but seeing so many people wish me a happy birthday on things like facebook and myspace have made my day. I pretty much went through half the day not realizing it was my birthday, and I'm sad that I can't spend it with any of my friends. Thank you for wishing me a good day. It really means a lot to me.

Oh man, I'm in college! I love my dorm. My room is on the top floor, and I have a great view from my window. It's even bigger than I thought it would be! This is so fucking awesome. I said goodbye to my parents about 6 hours after I moved in, and I'm already feeling the awesome independence thing. But my roommate hasn't shown up yet, and if ( Read more... )

Isn't it amazing how a simple "good Morning" from a co-worker can change your attitude for the rest of the day? I went into work this morning with nothing on my mind but what all I had to do today. A co-worker smiled at me and wished me a good morning, and I immediately felt myself cheer up. It's almost weird. And I also noticed how if you walk ( Read more... )