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jboy81

Dude

Jan 17, 2006 23:12

Well shits been crazy for me recently, I had several realizations and have really come back to a better place in my life. Do to a lot of crap I just totally shut down as far as keeping in touch and things like that. I have been reaching back out to people that mattered to me through the years but I just for whatever reason could not keep in touch ( Read more... )

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Dude.... tat2ddeviant January 18 2006, 15:31:01 UTC

# 1 way to recognize if someones your friend ( ... )

Re: Dude.... jboy81 January 19 2006, 01:13:39 UTC

Yea brother I just get in wierd bitchy moods, (listening to too much of the smiths). Bro you know I got a spot for you too if you need it. It has been difficult with the whole emily thing, that and realizing some people I had always trusted were not really friends its been tough. Umpa was my first kiss bro, crazy world, she was supposed to have kicked that shit too. Oh well I gotta visit her grave when I go, and I hope her kid is ok. We drifted apart long ago, but I still cared about her, I dont ever stop caring about people unless they do some jacked up shit. Maybe soon I can cry for her and be done with it, but I dont have a lot of tears any more. It would probably be harder but so many people have died since I was a kid it just doesnt really bother me. I miss her and wish the last things she had said to me had been nicer(she was one of the people that thought I was a jock, even though I saw her at a punk show lol) so that hurt sucks when the last thing someone you care about is harsh, especially when you were so happy to ( ... )

Re: Dude.... bigwurm101 January 20 2006, 04:27:28 UTC

Amen. Well said.

You're still relatively young ... leori January 18 2006, 19:17:59 UTC

... so you can totally potentially f-up your life for like another 5 years and be ok in the grand scheme of things. ;) Take risks while you can and there are risks to take. If you don't you might regret it.

I'm sorry to read that you don't think computers is the way for you to go... atleast you didn't realize this 2 quarters before you graduated right? ;)

Re: You're still relatively young ... jboy81 January 19 2006, 01:18:12 UTC

Oh I know, I will still work with computers its still what I am good at and an easy way to make cash. Itll also pay well enough to support my other endevors. I do still like them too. I was kinda ranting and raving. I will probably persue other things, I was into so many hobbies when I was a teen, lets see I read, I wrote stories, I wrote poems, I drew, I painted(horribly), I juggled, I did magic, I fucked with computers, I skateboarded, I played the drums, I worked out, shot guns and bows, I ran around the woods, I went to shows, I was in a couple bands, and I did some other crap too, like this massive mural on my bedroom wall, it was tight. Its amazing how much energy I have when I am clean and sober, I guess that comes with the insomnia LOL. So yea one career is just probably not realistic for me.

bigwurm101 January 20 2006, 04:31:31 UTC

dude its so good to see you talking postively, i think its helping to get me out of my funk as well. but you know ill always be there for you no matter what, and i know youll always be there for me. your my big bro and my best friend man, no matter how far away you are.

For sure dude jboy81 January 20 2006, 13:25:55 UTC

Just keep at it, no matter what tommorow is comming, and the day after will follow shortly, nothing we can do for any of that, only thing we can do is try to be positive and keep on living. Plus you are a smart one going to school right out of school, you gonna take the world by storm bro. Youll see.