In 1 Kings 19 Elijah had a little breakdown that I can identify with.  His prayer literally became "I have had enough Lord...Take my life."  Oh, how I can identify.  I've been so ashamed of having such a hard time in these first 2 year out of college.  I haven't known what to do, I haven't known how to get out of this never-ending funk.  I have ( Read more... )

 When all has seemed a lie to me
An endless fog of misery
How do I, see out?

Standing on my own
Isolated and alone
Tell me how, tell me how do I see out?

Is there a way to escape
Being alone?

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My child I'm here 
Please do not fear
I am with you, I am with you
You're not alone

I've seen the depth of your depression 
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 Mad
it seems that all i am these days.
not raging red skin beat someone up mad more like....
drowning in my own tears of fury mad.

it sucks when you have so much emotion and no one or nothing to exert it on.  
i just want something to blame.
i heard God wrong.
this person failed me.
i chose the wrong job.
people just don't understand.
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 Hello 4 years later!

Many of my friends are blogging now and it reminded me of my old livejournal.

This morning I woke up to no electricity.  My first thought: did I forget to pay my bill?  Luckily, I recently bought a box of matches and luckily, for teacher appreciation week last year I received quite a few candles from my students.  Therefore ( Read more... )

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Sometimes I am so amazed and in awe at how extremely blessed I am.  There are so many things I have to be grateful for, but on my mind right now is my family.

Over spring break so many things happened with my family.  My family does not have a pretty past, a past I am so glad I did not have to live through.  I've heard the stories of the things my ( Read more... )

It's been awhile again...I'm so bad at updating this.  Oh well, it finally warmed up here in good ol' Ithaca.  Today it's actually 80 degrees.  The only sad thing is this time of year last year everything was in bloom and there were leaves on the trees...this year it's like sunny winter lol  But at least it's still beautiful outside :)  It ( Read more... )

Auto Response from Twinnyflip: Since when do we get blizzards on April 16th??  Since we started living in Ithaca!  Have I ever mentioned that I HATE SNOW??

Auto Response from MasterFuji777: It's April 16th, the snow returned WHY?! This is it, I refuse to let Winter back! I'm freakin wearing shorts and a t-shirt tomorrow and that's final!

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After all these years (2 really) I've still got it in me.  I will always be a cheerleader!  So tonight we got together for Thomas' birthday and we had a blast below are some quotes for the evening, however I must explain one thing.  After we had our pizza, cake, cards conversation etc Christopher decided that we should bust out some stunting!  It ( Read more... )