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because of everything that happened i have to write psychoanalysis journal entries in these notebooks.. so i started to finally type them out...

enjoy? you might be disturbed. this is my private life. this is my mind.

Did you know a patient that had an overdose of 1550 mg of Maclobemide (Aka Manerix, an antidepressant) remained stuporous for 36 hours after having swallowed these pills? he remained in a coma for a couple days but came out of it. Well, I have access to 4200 mg. Jus saying. Thanks god.

I've had such a friggen hard life...
seriously: when am I going to get a break?

if I had to repeat everything...
moving away from all my friends in grade 11,
losing the first and best love of my life that made me feel good for the first time in my life..and to lose him to suicide after having fought with him,
the night the detectives told me...the night it happened,
the heart-break,
the cutting,
the attempts of suicide ( Read more... )

kids like you give kids like us a bad name ...

I think i'm annoying my friends right now.
that's fine

hahaha

It's days like these that people warn you about. "Some days you'll be fine, and others....you definitely won't." yeah, today was one of those days. From the moment I woke up I missed him with all my heart. Then my mum told me I had to get my passport picture to go to the philippines at Costco... already it's difficult to go to the south end alone ( Read more... )

If everything happens for God's plan, what's the point of praying? What's the point? there is non. i never questioned anything about what i believed in because everything worked. sure some thing turned out shitty but in the end, at least it was logical.. at least it makes sense! however, this makes no sense at all ( Read more... )

I auditioned for a play today. I auditioned not for fun.. not so i could distract myself... but because of the content of the play. I asked one of the play writers really what it was about.. and she she said the play was not completed yet.. that it was still being editted and revised yet essentially ( Read more... )

Fuck her self-adoration. She is myrtle wilson from the Great Gatsby. So consumed with this materialistic dream that she has destroyed the very presence of God. So self-absorbed that her greed has become her reality. her ignorance and her perfect bubble has surrounded her in her protected little world where she is indestructable, and all eyes are on ( Read more... )

Cat. there's nothing like waking up in the morning in tears. says ( Read more... )