i guess the past few days have been confusing. I've gotten used to it. My brain no long understand the normal. it doesn't understand what people say anymore. there are strains and tears in every inch of my heart and right now i'm just happy. my life fell apart and rebuilt everything in less than 24 hours...saturday i slept until 2...shouldn't have ( Read more... )

i guess it's coming down to the last few weeks...i want to go home so bad...just to go out at night...to have fun...i want to be closer to lindsey...i love her so much....sometimes she frustrates me....i'm debating a few options that aren't exactly the best for us....but i guess we'll have to see....it's actuallu only one but it's still important ( Read more... )

i guess today was going alright until i heard she couldn't stay with me for the 5 years i was going to be away. I guess it hurt me a lot. More than i thought it did when she first said it. She doesn't get what it means to me. She never will. # months is still a considerable amount of time. how do i know what's going on? I'd never have a cle. here i ( Read more... )

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today qualifies as the ruined one....

she wanted an entry...here it is....thanks

peace out....i don't feel like writing....

this weekend i had the pleasure of returning to my home town of norfolk, va.....what a crock of crap that was. the entire trip was wasted because my mother decided to ruin a relationship. a relationship i haeve worked hard to get to where it's at now. i love this girl more than anything. she makes me happier than i've been in a long time. and ( Read more... )

i wish it was as easy as everyone makes it out to be. and maybe one day it will be. but today has fallen apart in my hands...along with every other day i've been here....and do you know what all these days' weigh on my back?....too much for me to hold. things have to be different. and everytime someone says they will be they aren't...i'm sick of it ( Read more... )

i just wish everything was better...even tho they have gotten better. i love her...she doesn't even know it. thanks

peace out bitches

i wish my mother would understand the situation i'm in. she doesn't ever care how i feel....or that i try to make her happy. it pisses me off because i do care. i try so hard to schedule things around my life. lindsey makes me happy when i'm with her i just wish my mom would see that. she doesnt get it. it pisses me off ( Read more... )

i wish someone would hear me....i wish someone was here to help. It hurts to be away from her and being with her is like a tease. no one understands. Lindsey sometimes frustrates me more than anything...and i wish she'd care that she does sometimes. she jsut says ok and goes on with life. i can't stand to have someone mad at me. It bothers me. sooo ( Read more... )