I go to bed just hoping to wake up, different, changed...

Grown Up.

Never happens.

Just got done watching Juno. And one of the most well-rounded and mature people i've ever met just had her baby today. While I'm extremely happy for her I was thinking of posting of Facebook that if there's anything she needs I would be willing to help. No offense most mothers, but you don't have what it takes to be a good mother and your kid will ( Read more... )

Watching The Wrestler. Good flick. Scene where the kid is playing with the Ram action figure. Looks like he's fighting some fighter jets.

Flashback:

Me and my cousin in my grandma's house in Missouri I was maybe 10 or 12 years old. Playing action figures. Probably Ninja Turtles, X-Men, and the like, whatever was cool around that time. And I  ( Read more... )

Further down the rabbit hole...

In times of plenty invest in the future. In times of scarcity rely on the past.

I'm wasting my life.

I haven't tackled a serious issue in weeks, I've been distracting myself from the hard questions life poses to us, and frankly I've skirted the responsibility I had formerly placed upon myself to have a meaningful life no matter how long it took.

Nothing worth doing (or having) is easy.

I've taken the easy route of late.

I'm ( Read more... )

I'm done trying to kid myself.

This life is not worth living. Never was, never will be.

Only the conclusion remains.

So i got a freebie today and am very grateful.

After getting off work I was driving home, probably going 70 in a 55, which is not unusual at all for me, the main reason being that I am a good and safe driver. If there are no cars in my lane for 200 yards and i'm aware of the positions and speeds of the cars in the adjacent lanes I have no problem ( Read more... )

I had the strangest mix of thoughts and experiences the other day which culminated in a dream from which sprang an idea.

I had been watching JFK  (starring Kevin Costner) for most of the day, in addition I read a quote which said, "If two men each have an apple and they exchange apples, each man still has an apple. But if two men each have an idea ( Read more... )

I just finished what will likely be my last jar of 100% Real (brand) peanut butter. It was good too. The store I shop at will no longer be carrying it. Why? Because the distributor is having a hard time keeping it in stock and so is upping his minimum order to facilitate supply and demand. Damn supply and demand. Aren't they just supposed to raise ( Read more... )