It's funny.

I remember talking to others with eating disorders who attempted recovery right before I made my decision to "recover" a year ago, and they all told me "you will get fat and it will be even harder to lose" ... well they were right. I thought I was fat a year ago at 82 lbs, 30+ pounds is not a pretty site. I need to start losing weight ( Read more... )

"My lips they tremble from this silence
But I'd rather chew on razor blades
Then speak the words I want to say

Don't tell me you are sorry
I see this thing all too clearly now
We're past apologies
I just want you to bleed like me

I should have known
But I never thought you'd do this to meIt hurts to laugh ( Read more... )

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pictures from halloween:


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friday night was the city with matty kaylyn dom james tara and bren. probably one of the top nights of the year it was amazingggg. i really love the city, i want to live there for at least a year of my life, i've just gotta. we went straight from school & caught the 4:06 train so we really didn't have the whole day, we ate dinner and roamed around ( Read more... )

So last night was my sweet sixteen and it was an absolute blaaaaast. I had such a great time and I really did not think I was going to because it wasn't at some fancy place, but i ended up liking it even better because it was ALOOT more meaningful and intimate ( Read more... )

SO i finally got hair extensions, i guess i do like them but i am not use to them at all. and also my hair is still really choppy at the top so it annoys me with that, but i think they look okay. all of the people who see me on a daily basis are like woah, they're werid at first and then end up loving them. maybe i'll end up loving them too- i'm a ( Read more... )

I cannot stop crying the past two weeks. These lyrics are for all the people I care about that I'm hurting so badly with my ed, and my other issues. I am sorry. I am especially sorry for my family, and my boyfriend. I'm sorry I can't stop hurting you.Seems like it was yesterday ( Read more... )