well turns out i got into marymount. i'm not sure if i'll be able to go there but i sure want to.

this journal needs to get better looking. i'd have more motivation to write things in it. little help?

i'm going to be really disappointed if i get up tomorrow and find out we have school. i was going to make a semi-long entry but i don't feel like it now.

on another note i just finally saw that car commerical with modest mouse's gravity rides everything. it was pretty dumb. it just showed moms loading up their minivans and said 'moms are changing, shouldnt mini-vans?'
terrible.

my mom called me earlier this evening to see how i was doing and i started crying at the end of the conversation as i was hanging up and cried for a half hour or so. i don't know why. i felt really bad talking to her. maybe it was just hearing her voice, she sounded very comforting on the other line. it was same the feeling i used to get when my ( Read more... )

helpless.

ache.

i can't even put into words what i'm feeling.

just keep choking it back.
keep quiet.

if you don't sleep, then you don't have to wake up.
eliminate sleep from your diet.
next step: time.

'so sick and tired of all these pictures of me
completely wrong
totally wrong
i'm not surprised and really, why should i be?'