so today was an emotional one.

i dont know why but a lot of things started to hit me today.

i finally realized that some people are not in my life as they use to be. it hurt pretty bad, so i decided to go over to lacey's house. i have really missed her a lot and just needed her. so we both just layed there and cried. we cried about lots of things. ( Read more... )

im at a loss of words...
i really dont know whats going on but when have i ever?

one good thing: i'm going to bayfest this weekend!

im going to have loads of fuuuun!

wow

i thought things were going up hill untill my grandfather dies on a monday then ivan hit on wednesday then after that my life seemed to be destroyed. i dont really understand a lot of things right now but hopefully i will figure them out soon. people lead you to beleive one thing but mean another, why do you have to do that? things like this i ( Read more... )

so this might be my last entry for a while... depends on how long electricity is out.

house is ready. food is ready. my entertainment packet is ready. hmmm, i think everything is ready.

BRING IT ON IVAN!

everyone please be safe. i cant stress that enough! everyone call me when this is over to let me know that your okay. im gona try and get a hold ( Read more... )

earlier ga and chelsea came and picked me up and  we went to ga's house. we hung there for a while then went to the park and played till it got dark. then we got suuupper bored and decided to go to walmart. walmart was empty, there was nothing left. it was scary. then they announced they were closing at 10pm. so we decided to go get sonic cause we ( Read more... )

so lots of people i know are leaving town for this hurricane but IM STAYIN! heck ya, im gona ride this thing out. everyone is freaking out and saying this ones gona be bad, but for some reason i dont think its gona be as bad as people think. my parents boarded up our house, just the whole back that faces the water, and everything is inside that ( Read more... )

take the worst pain you have ever experienced, multiply it by a million and thats just the beginning of my pain.

i've lost...

friends then my boyfriend and now my grandfather all in the past couple weeks.

i think i've set a new record.

"Lord take care of my papa. Amen."

"The loss of innosence the loss of life
Joy now filled with grief, we ask ourselves why
No reason, no cause, no justification to be done
Things that have happened should never need to be spoken
The people who knew you remember the laughter that is now silent
With your name now comes a smile that can never be broken
As they remember the times that ( Read more... )

so im at ga's house and its 2am! wohooo im sitting here with chelsea looking at the computer screen. ga and scotti have already crashed, they have to get up early tom.

my day....

went to school. came home and took an hour  nap, YEY i love naps! then went to work. got off then met scotti and ga at walmart to get stuff to tye dye. then i went home ( Read more... )

well i have finally realized ive screwed my life up. everything i have ever cared about is gone...i.e. friends, relationships, faith, ect. im in a situation where i dont have a clue what to do. i messed up and people cant seem to see that im changing and trying to make things better. im not sure what else i need to do to prove things to them. i ( Read more... )