I'm so distraught. I just want to be happy again. Why does everyone I love in my life leave or hurt me?

I'm not is shady or sketchy.... I hate that shit.

I'm plenty of bad things.... but I'm not a liar or shady.

I'm so sick of working so extremely hard for a relationship with a boy. I don't know if all males in general are so immature....or if I need a man instead of a boy ( Read more... )

I want a boy who will love me with all his heart and won't let it fade away.
I want a boy that cares about my feelings....and doesn't like to see me cry.
I want a boy that will treat me the way a loving girlfriend should be treated.

Why is that so hard?

I've been cleaning my room and I've been rather surprised by how depressing it is. I've found so many things that I miss.... mostly pictures, gifts, letters, and things that remind me of all the people that were once close to me and now they're gone. First, theres my dad. I found his urn(it wasn't missing, I just always tried to ignore it) and a ( Read more... )

I really need to make a lot of changes in my life and I don't really know where to begin ( Read more... )

I'm horribly horribly horribly scared of growing up!!
and all the changes that come with it....
and weird responsibilities...
I don't want to!!

I want to be deaf, mute, blind... and all that stuff.
So no one can talk to me and I don't have to talk to anyone. Everyone would be happier.
I'm hot.
and I can't sleep.

I don't even know whats going on with me anymore ( Read more... )

I'm fucking depressed.....