had a cool new year and stuff. my party was fun, got nicely drunk... didnt go to bed til 7.30, partly coz soemone else was in my bed... damn him!! but yeah was fun. ermm... yeh, back at college now. goodgood.... have a maths exam tues and chemistry retake the following tuesday. havnt started revising yet so PROBABLY should do that at some point. ah ( Read more... )

aww i've had such a lovely few days! feeling really happy and buzzing!! yesterday after buying wine and stuff for new years party i went to the hob with george, simon, lianna and some girl called kayleigh who was nice but a bit scary in a loud chavish way as opposed to scary gothy-typical-hob way... but meh! was really cool coz that was the first ( Read more... )

back home after several days at grandparents... all fun, except my dad and james spent the whole time arguing. but nothing new about that! my main christams present has just arrived today... mp3 player :) yey! its very shecshee ( Read more... )

Firstly, after telling george i was on the fone to rob ( Read more... )

not gonna write a lot. keep deleting what i write coz i realise how lame it is!! muse tomorrow with chris :) hope its ok. i really want so mcuh for it to be an amazing night... more for him than for me! RUBBISH but if he enjoys himself and shows it (im obviously no good at reading him, dammit!) then i will be happy. very very VERY sad but genuinely ( Read more... )

saw chris today and, well... basically he said that he's too stressed and whatever and that he thinks we'd be better as friends than in a relationship. and he said that he thought I would prefer that. does he know me at all?!?! i just... god this is stupid, i dont know what to think or feel anymore. because on the one hand there's the whole thing ( Read more... )

hmm :( feel really miserable suddenly. keep having horrible mood swings and its really pissing me off cz i cant control them. last night felt all happy before i went to sleep, then lay in bed trying to sleep and got so upset and just. i dunno. and now, been the same all day. buzzing one minute and then just almost in tears the next. GRRR. was fine ( Read more... )

HAHAHA my dad just went into james' room and found loadsa bags of dope and some scales... :P he's in SO much shit! but dads apparently gonna take it all to the dump which is such a waste. i tried asking james if he wanted to sell any but got as far as *knock on door* 'james, can...' before the usual 'FUCK OFF' was yelled at me. ah well... i tried ( Read more... )

well. hmm. was gonna write lots of thoughts but i dont know what to think so that's a bit out the window. i just want to know how he feels before i can let myself feel one way or the other for definate. actaully, not gonna say anymore about this in here its not fair.

ohhhhhhhh......... im a bad person :P i love it. and :( feel all crappy and :s feel all manipulative tho... but :) i dunno!! just.... hmmm.....!!! went xmas shopping today with george and maisie, stoppin in wetherspoons for a break, as you do... sadly, that was before we'd even started shopping.... ended up not buying anything... but ah well ( Read more... )