Clouded vision, clouded skies ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if I've grown at all in the past few years. And other times I feel 40 years older than I am.

Life is so exhausting.

I miss him. But I can't tell him I miss him because right now, I can't make it work. So what's the point in telling him I miss him when no good can come from it. Just hurt. But I do.

I miss you.

Home right now. Bored out of my mind already. Summer's begun and so far, being home just reminds me of the past two shitty summers i've spent here. thank god this summer won't be like the last two. i'll be in burlington... with friends, actually living a life that revolves around things other than just working. Definitely looking forward to it. And ( Read more... )

i never wanted to have these feelings again. they should've stayed dead and buried 3 years ago.

i'm the biggest fool in the world.

And so summer continues to drag on... it hasn't been so bad though. I mean, I'm working constantly which has made time pass by surprisingly fast. I pretty much only have one day off a week, which I usually spend sleeping. I'm going to the beach with Annie on thursday (hopefully, if it's nice) and then possibly out with gianna saturday (again, ( Read more... )

So... another summer. I've come to the realization that this just isn't my life anymore. My life's in Vermont. I've tried to fight it and hold on to the past, pretty much convincing myself that my life was still here. But it's not. Burlington is where all my friends are. It's become comfortable. I miss it. It's my last summer here anyways. I'll be ( Read more... )

how did my life become this? I don't understand.

It was never the prozac that made me think and feel this way. It was me all along.

I fucking hate it here.

I feel like I have nothing left in me.
I'm so tired of life.
Nothing brings me happiness.
And I feel like I have no strength left to fix it.

I feel completely numb.

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i want to go to sleep and not wake up... at least not for a very, VERY long time.