I guess it was like two an half years ago when I first thought my grandmother was going to die, so I've kind of accepted it. The doctors said she had a couple weeks left, and I don't even remember what they thought was wrong with her back then but they were wrong, because she bounced back. This year she was diagnosed with cancer. She was still ( Read more... )

I found out yesterday that I kid I semi-knew at Towson died on Sunday. Apparently he drove into a tree and wasn't wearing a seatbelt or something. His name was Krzysztof, or Chris to be easy, and I'm pretty bummed about his death but I don't know why ( Read more... )

It is officially summer for me, and I'm really happy about that. But I'm honestly not feeling that excited. I feel like this summer is going to be severely lacking in the friends department, just like school. Friendships that I thought would last a long time have just vanished. I probably could have tried a little harder on some to keep them up, ( Read more... )

Finally got a job with the disabled kids. Not Cedar Lane but close enought. Doesnt start until June 30th and its only five weeks, Mondays through Fridays. It will be about five hours day at $12.50 an hour, so I'm pretty pumped.

Squee. The end.

My last week of classes is this week and my finals end on May 20th. It is finally the end of my freshman year of college and I have found that I am the only one who isn’t leaving a big group of friends for the summer. While everybody else is bittersweetly going home for college, leaving behind their drinking buddies, emotional support systems, new ( Read more... )

I had an emotional break down last night (my hormones are fucked. thanks to birth control, i get four periods a month! yippee!!) because Wyatt told me he couldn't come visit me this weekend. His reasoning was that he had three papers to write. Now, these papers were due like two months ago but his teacher said a couple weeks ago if he got all of ( Read more... )

Please excuse the following rant as madness ( Read more... )

I dealt with two particularly fun drunk people this weekend. Normally if I want to avoid interaction with people like that, I can just stay in my building or at least I'm safe in my room. But this weekend was not the case. The first guy was a large kid that just moved to my floor this semester. I don't know his name, but he is huge, possibly a ( Read more... )

Last night I had a dream that everybody was abandoning me and I was all alone. I keep having dreams that it’s the end of the world and all my closest people are no where to be found. So in this dream, I don’t think it was the apocalypse again, but I was looking for somebody to talk to and couldn’t find anyone. Then I saw a bus coming and hanging ( Read more... )

So this week was pretty decent. Nothing too shocking happened. The most eventful thing was drawing the nude model again. The same one from last semester. I know this girl's body so well. It was fine except for when my teacher made us all pose like her for ten seconds every time she changed her pose (which was every 30-90 seconds because its gesture ( Read more... )