i don't know how many more days like this followed by nights like this i can take...

i spent most of today, researching, planning, and executing a painting, i'm happy with how it came out, and it's one of the most original pieces i've made, so that makes me that much more proud of it ( Read more... )

this week was weird indeed ( Read more... )

my car tried to kill itself tonight.

i envy it sometimes.

i'm so done with being hurt ( Read more... )

monday i moved the second segment of the three portions of my stuff, alone again, i fucking rock ( Read more... )

i'm just asking for you to show me.

i don't think that's too much to ask.

i did that and so much more for you when you asked.

sometimes i actually fall asleep and sleep for a bit, who am i kidding no i don't, that's why i'm up at two updating my livejournal.

i don't sleep often enough or well enough, and when i finally do fall into it, i'm yanked back out again by vicious images and thoughts.

i wish i could control my subconscious more.

i had planned to write in here how optimistic i was about things, getting a new job, moving out, bettering things with the people who i care about most ( Read more... )