Some important key factors I should be reminded of...and remind everyone else about.. (from meth addiction website ( Read more... )

Fuck 23 days. I FUCKED myself really good this time....I'm weaker than a weak ass bitch. I can't believe I had the opportunity to say N-O. NO, I don't want this...No, I'm cu....I'd rather smoke buds, or drink. Fuck me, I'm back to Square 1. I've fallen again...why do I just keep going under?

A very wise person once said..
What you put into it, is wat you get.
I'm doin it :)

21 days...still going strong :)

Oh it's wonderful........i've been clean for exactly 20 days!! this is an awesome record for me !! i've never been clean this long besides Minnesota. I hope that everyone's proud of me, its been a rough road to recovery from addiction. Even though they wont read this im sure, i wanna privately thank all the help i recieved from my mom, daniel, ( Read more... )

i'm still in love with you, boy ( Read more... )

sometimes, i wonder if dan's too possessive. today he told me I was purposely trying to show off my stomach to J. wat ever-- thats fuckin bullshit. I just wanted some budz. I wasnt showing him shit ( Read more... )

Nov. 9
9:10:29 am pst

18 dayz
blood is raging to my head
the toxins so deep within
still lurking in the crevices
taking over so fast
fainting, weakness, falling...
...come down......going under...
Powerless to it all
Not today, not tomorrow...not this second
this wont end
im too far in

Something's always there ( Read more... )

Well damn its been awhile. I should write more often. I think that's what I'll do...or at least try to do. Last night I kicked it with Mike...and Matt. Yeah..it sucks because there I go....down the drain again, and back to square one for the zillionth fuckin time. Why do I do this? Why doesn't it go away? I can't turn away. The grasp is too ( Read more... )