i am so tired right now, dumline was painful, but for some reason more than usual. josh said he will bring me a back brace and i need to wear my knee brace, even though it hurts when i wear it, but whatever. today was pretty interesting, siegert read one of my extra credit poems to the class, i let her, i kinda wanted her to. i like other people ( Read more... )

ahg, my mom just now found out that i have droped dance class, and i have two t.a. classes 5th and 6th. so now she is all agravated with me because she said i should have stayed in dance, but it is a waste of my time because of the stupidity of the stupid teacher, he gets on my last nerve, and the class was really pointless, we berely did anything ( Read more... )

so yeah, i am so tired, and i am trying to find out if this is my last night here or what, but yeah. branden like tried to kill me, fucking crazy ass driver, every green light he tried to peel out and it scared the crap out of me. but yeah anyways, i am so tired, i need more sleep. i know i always say that im going to sleep right when i get home, ( Read more... )

so today we had to go to placerville and did like some thing at high hill ranch, in apple hill. it was my aunts side of the family, so basicly a bunch of people i didn't know. BUT since it was the holidays i got to drink, yeah i was the only teenager there that was allowed to drink, even though there were only two other teenagers there. and yeah i ( Read more... )

so yeah, yesterday i went over to sarah's house cuz i was going crazy being stuck at home. and yeah, i ended up staying the night ;) i wish i could give you more details but yeah i will tell a select like one of you what happened.....anyways, then today we had drumline and chris was supposed to be at sarahs at like 7 and it was around 8 when i ( Read more... )

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||| 63% Stability |||||||||||||| 56% Orderliness |||||||||||||||| 63% Empathy |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Interdependence |||||||||||| 43% Intellectual |||||| 23% Mystical |||||||||||| 50% Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Religious || 10% Hedonism ||||||||||| ( Read more... )

what the hell, it is supposed to be rainy all day and i emerge from my dark room and shocked by the bright yellow inconvienient spot in the sky. it hurt my eyes, but anyways, i wish it would be pouring down rain for the rest of spring break, cuz then maybe i won't have to go to drumline tomorrow. cuz i really don't want to go, it would be pointles ( Read more... )

so i had this really, weird dream last night. my brother and sister and a bunch of other people were sitting it this over crowded class room, all the desks were right next to eachother, except the front row wich faced everyone else, me and some other people were sitting in the front row. then the rows of desks like turned into rows of seats like on ( Read more... )

fuck this, i have never felt more alone than i do now. fuck, i am going away, im hiding. because obviously nobody cares how i feel. nobody would ever think to ask me how it makes me feel, and nobody cares what happens, so screw this.....

i wish i could feel nothing,
but i do,
and it hurts....

i am going crazy, i have been at my house since saturday morning, i havent left except for to take a walk out in the rain and i came back driping wet and got yelled at. i need to get out of here, the only thing that is holding me back is the fact that i really have nowhere to go. and i don't go anywhere by myself. fuck man i just need to get out of ( Read more... )