Eyes swell, filling with tears.
Cheeks can only absorb so much pain.
My heart can only beat for so long.
So give me one more chance to fog your windows.
Flushed lips next to flushed bodies,
and they won't have to, never will find out.
Because you know I love you,
and you know you want to.

school was just school on tuesday but I didn't go to practice cuz I had an eye doctor appointment. they numbed my eyes which was a trip and then after that wore off they dilated them, that hurt. then I met danielle jess and fele back at the school for the game. nothing special. wednesday me and fele went on the Boces thing, I still don't know what ( Read more... )

I fucked up. I guess it's time I live with my decisions. maybe I'll learn but this fucking sucks.

written is a life I wish to lead
written is a dream I wish to share
spent is time on you - gone
loved is the feeling you gave me
hated are the lies you told me
lost is my soul, searching for answers
stolen is my life, my identity, and will
broken is my heart

Thank god for Darienne Brenner and 99 apples. I had such a good time tonight. okay so given I didn't get up and dance like I wanted to but it doesnt matter. I had such a good conversation with Darienne. Like I feel so much better about everything. I mean I've been talking to Mr. Carney for SO long trying to figure myself out and here I am talking ( Read more... )

I don't really know what to write. It's been a long two days. emotions up and down like no other. I cry at the drop of a hat and the same thing that made me cry can make me smile. I don't get it. I finally started being honest with myself. I've discovered a lot of things that I never really wanted to admit but I guess it's better that I did. It's ( Read more... )

wow. completely different feelings than before. my moms friends are here and they're drinking and what not. one of her friends is too drunk to get up and pour herslf any wine so she asked me to do it. big mistake. since they're all in the dining room and the wine was in the kitchen, I downed a few glasses before I gave it back to her. I felt fine, ( Read more... )

I just don't understand why I come home every night and collapse on my floor. I'm sorry but I'm one of the last people on the face of this earth that deserves to feel this way. and I didn't even bring it upon myself. you practically begged me to "make it work" and look at this bullshit. I don't care what you say, I'm sick of feeling like I was ( Read more... )

boring day. Rinaldo woke me up at 12 30 and asked me if I wanted to come over. so I called her back after I put my contacts in and brushed my teeth and she said she was going to Kosta's for a little. so she called me again around 2 30 and I got dressed and went. We hung out and played Sims2 for a while. Then Sam came over. It was fun. We took ( Read more... )

today I had to wake up at 7 15 for the damn competition. we were exhibition since we hosted it but if our score counted we would have been 1st. same with varsity. It wasn't that bad, I had a good time with fele jess danielle and shatema. I haven't gotten a good night's sleep in a long fucking time. too long. I just lay in bed and think about every ( Read more... )