I finally had sex.
And I feel like telling the whole world.

Nobody seems to get on LJ anymore.
Maybe that's a good thing...

First of all, I would like to thank everyone who has given me advice regarding my relationship. You guys have really opened my eyes to a lot of new things that I never thought of. I have finally decided to call it quits with Matthew. I need to love myself before I can ever try to love someone else. It has been pretty hard, but I think I can do this ( Read more... )

You look at where you're going & where you are & it never makes sense. But then you look back at where you've been & a pattern seems to emerge. if you project forward from that pattern, then sometimes you can come up with something. I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, & some stories have no clear ( Read more... )

two days left.
i'm completely thrilled.

uncle john died yesterday.
i'm really really sad. =[

i'm sad and happy at the same time.
it doesn't feel right at all.

one weeek!
this has been the longest two months of my life.
i wish the citadel wasn't so strict.

11.

sixteen dayssss
feels like a
l i f e t i m e.

matt comes home in 18 days.
and he's pretty much mine for a week.
thank god. i miss him too much.

i wish thanksgiving break would come...now!
actually, i wish many things were different.
but i can't change them so i shouldn't worry about them.

i really am happy with life...it's just hard sometimes.

what the fuck was i thinking..

i don't want to be emo and say i hate my life. but i pretty much do.
matt is the only thing/being that keeps me sane.
i wish he didn't have to live so far away.
ok no more bitching for awhile.. promise.