How do I compete with your dream?  I don't, and I can't.  So I'll walk away, and let you live your dream, without you having to worry as to how it will effect me.  I can't keep waiting till the day you say your leaving.  It hurts to bad.  I love you so much, don't ever forget that.  I just don't know how to do this anymore.  It hurts, and it scares ( Read more... )

Hey, I was just wondering if anyone out there in LJ land would possibly have a code for my wonderful friend Eric, so he can get a live journal. I you do, please leave me a comment. I would greatly appreciate it! Thanks in advance.

Jennie

Seriously. I am so fucked. My insurance bill just came, and it's $400. I must have miscalculated, cuz I thought it wasn't due until January. So guess what that means, I need to come up with $400 buy December 6th! I did not calculate that into my budget. I am so broke, I can't handle it. If I could just sell my truck, my grandpa is willing to ( Read more... )

I'm thinking about selling my truck and getting a newer used car for a hell of a lot cheaper. I love my truck to death, but I have the rest of my life to get something nice like it again. Right now I just hate living paycheck to paycheck. I miss being able to buy myself new things when I want, and buy my family and friends things when I see ( Read more... )

I'm going to make my journal private for a while. Just something for me, without all the LJ drama. I'll try and keep up on everyone else's, I just need to do this for myself. So long everyone.

<3 Jennie

I'm not always strong ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm a need and not a want most of the time. I'm sick of feeling like I have to ask to be held, hugged, kissed, etc. I'm sick of being the strong one all the time, like what I say doesn't mean much. I'm sick of repeating the same thing over and over again and it not changing much of anything. I need affection, I need to feel loved, ( Read more... )

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I don't know how much more of this I can take. I feel like I am taken for granted, and that's pretty shitty! It really needs to end. I just don't know what to do anymore!

Where do I start??? Life's been ok lately. I think I'm pretty much fully recovered from the whole infection thing. Thank god! I've been going to the gym on a daily basis for at least an hour a day. I've very proud of myself for that. I want to lose 40lbs by like November or December. Whether that will happen or not I don't know, but I'm ( Read more... )