Why do I do this every single semester? I put way too much on my plate and then everything blows up in my face. I wear myself completely out, get sick, have emotional breakdowns, and hate myself. I NEED to give something up, but I can't. I can't stop school because obviously that is the most important thing in my life. I can't quit working ( Read more... )

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my birthday last night was wonderful. there was a wine tasting at work so i got to drink a bunch of yummy wines for free. the wine guy knew it was my bday so i think he kept giving me good pours. we even got to try "row eleven" which is a $60 bottle of pinot noir and it was super super yummy. needless to say, i was drunk before i left. a huge ( Read more... )

i woke up this morning and looked out the window and everything is covered in a few inches of snow. it's been snowing sooooo hard all morning! omg, it looks soooo sweet outside, everything all white and clean. i have to get to the airport today though - 2 hours drive in the snow should be fun! not.

i took a flight home on thursday evening. the wake and funeral were both very nice. it wss cloudy all morning, but as the pastor was saying the final prayer at the cemetary, the clouds parted and the sun shown onto us. i'll take that as a good sign. i saw a lot of family. my memories are in a time warp though. in my mind, no one has gotten ( Read more... )

my grandma passed away this morning. my mom, aunt and uncle, grandpa, and her two brothers were by her side. it was peaceful and quick, and for that i am thankful. i'll always have the good memories - spending many weekends at her house and holidays. she was a good person, a good grandma, and i will surely miss her.

my grandma went back into the hospital last night. they think the cancer has moved into her brain. i dont think she has much time left. i wish i could've said goodbye.

my kitty was hit by a car today. rest in peace, Isis. you were my best friend, i love you and miss you :(

i took a leave of absence from work for the rest of the month. i feel like my life is spiraling out of control. i need the money, but i think i need my mental sanity more. i feel defeated by life. i've never admitted that i couldn't handle something, i've never quit like this. but now i have 20-25 hours of my life back for 2 weeks and am ( Read more... )

i talked to my grandma tonight. she told me that she has given up and has come to terms that she is going to die from cancer in the next few months. she said she no longer wants to go through the physical and mental pain of chemo and will no longer be continuing her treatments. she just wants to spend the next couple of months at home with her ( Read more... )