dude, fer real. Autumn and Marah have been fighting, because that bitch is getting clingy and needy for time. 3 days 3 fights. I think its because Autumn didn't go out there this weekend. I hit that pusy twice in 12 hours though. I did it hella good too. She'll be back. haha they're always back.

I think its funny that I mean seriously they go like ( Read more... )

I cried at work today, because Irealized. Ihave to put a time limit on when Autumn needs to be out of my house. She said something this morning that made me realize she's never going to choose between us. Frankly there should be no choice. I should have been more stern and kicked her ass out the second I knew what she was doing ( Read more... )

I know I'm going to regret this letter in the morning, but I have to say it.

I'm tired of you trying to hie this whole thing thats going on. I'm tired of you leading me on. I'm tired of Marah rubbing it in my face. I'm tired of you sneaking around behind my back. I wouldn't even have seen Marah'snew name on her myspace if you hadn't of posted new ( Read more... )

So, Autumn called me on her lunch, well halfway through her lunch justt o bitch at me because she forgot to pay 2 bills, she made it my fault. She wants me to go down and pay them tomorrow, well, fucking suprise I gave her money for the water bill already so she can just pay that one. The cable bill I specifically remember saying something last ( Read more... )

So today was my first actual day working in my dept. It was really boring because, I pretty much just stood around all day. I mean Idid do some actual work, but not enough to constitute anything ( Read more... )

So, I started my new job at Wal-Mart today. Autumn had the whole day to herself, and I won't really see her until Saturday, which is fine. I just don't trust her.

I still love her but she's STILL betraying me.

Last night when she thought I was sleeping I was watching what she was doing online. She visited my page, and a few other peoples. And of ( Read more... )

Today was weird. I decided to back off and let her live her life and talk to whom ever she wants to talk to.

Having said that...she told me she loved me today. I mean, it was out of no where. I didn't say it first, we weren't talking about our relationship. Nothing. She was just tying her boots and she said "I love You" I said "what?" because I ( Read more... )

So, today I played nice. I made Autumn breakfast, which she didn't eat, I didn't cry or act all clingy. I mean I did try and spy on her a little bit, but she caught me and slammed the door on my face. Well, why is she so secretive if she has no secrets ( Read more... )

I am miserable. I wish I could hate you but I can't.

I'm so numb. When I'm not numb all I can do is cry.

You say you haven't been happy for a long time, why didn't you tell me then? Why do something so heinous I can never forget it. Why take all the trust I had for you and throw it away. Why flush my heart down the toilet.

Why can't I just let you go ( Read more... )

I may be miserable, but I have yet to see the worst of it, I'm sure.