nothing is going my way ( Read more... )

painted my nails today, but i still can't seem to ever do it right ( Read more... )

 if i could go back in time
knowing what i know now
and remaining who i am now
i would go back to those moments and make everything perfect
in an instant
at any price
i want that more than anything
i hadn't ruined such a perfect thing
that i had realized that i had such a perfect thing
that this perfect thing was forever and eternal

if only i

 it's funny how the thing i was most struggling against
i am now most struggling for

freedom against security

but there's a new threat that looms over us
and it scares me

a future that i can see clearly in my mind
something completely
massive and
irreversible
no matter what happens

because of the biggest mistake in my life so far

i hope that this nightmare ( Read more... )

 it's yes and then no
yes and no
but right now
i really wish that it would just happen
that you would make the same mistake that i did
i really want it to happen soon
that you'll not make me wait for too long until you shoot my heart out
and then
i no longer have a will to love
then i don't know
just do it 
i just want you to hurt me hard

because i deserve it

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 sometimes having so many minds
even with so many voices
it's just not enough
and you just 
need to
scream

 the world is a big disappointment
but i'm the biggest disappointment of all
there's not enough ears in the world
to be enough to satisfy me

cry all you want, but what's happened has happened and what you've done is what you've done

why is everyone so disappointingly inhuman?
is there no such thing as honesty, courage, loyalty
in truth, i couldn't say i ( Read more... )

 you fucking whore ( Read more... )

 finally it's the end

can you believe it?
what happens now, i guess it's up in the air

what do i do now?

what am i supposed to do now?

 i want to be smart ( Read more... )