nervous about this school year ( Read more... )

Its 12:03, meaning I leave for germany, TOMORROW. holy shit. I feel... excited, anxious, nervous, stressed, scared ( Read more... )

hold on, baby, you're losing it.
the water's high, you're jumping into it,
and letting go...and no one knows...
you cry, but you don't tell anyone,
that you might not be the golden one.
and you're tied together with a smile
but you're coming undone...

Everyone knows I'm in over my head.

The needle tears a hole;
the old familiar sting,
try to kill it all away,
but I remember everything.
What have I become?
My dearest friend.
Everyone I know,
Goes away, In the end.


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its going on 1:00 and my whole world has gone to hell.

I will lie awake,
lie for fun and fake the way I hold you.
Let you fall for every empty word I say.

I've found my highschool boyfriend.
I've found my highschool boyfriend.
I've found my highschool boyfriend.
I've found my highschool boyfriend.
I've found my highschool boyfriend.
I've found my highschool boyfriend.
I've found my highschool boyfriend.
I've ( Read more... )

so i bitch alot about it;
which im notorious for.
and i always think about it,
and wonder if thats just how i am.

but then we layed there, in pure silence, and thats when i knew.

"Lie to me. I promise, I'll believe."

fuck parents. 
seriously fuck fuck fuck.

nights like these; i swearr. i cant wait to fucking get out of this town and be on my own, doing my own thing. fuck everyone else.

ohyeah, happy valentines day.

If I could escape
I would, but first of all let me say
I must apologize for acting, stank and treating you this way

...If I could escape
And re-create a place as my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
And tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?

If I could be sweet 
(I’ll try to change)
I know I've been a real bad ( Read more... )