I know it's been long time since I wrote here. I've been doing very well in my life I feel but I think there is a reason why I can't move on in my relationships. The reason is a reason that I thought was resolved when he moved away and got married but he still is on my mind often. Tonight he told me that his wife is pregnant and I am melting down ( Read more... )

One would think that a sigh would be a I'm in love or something of the such..... no this is a I've made a new friend recently that wants to spend time with me that understands my puke and blood stories! I know this sounds bizaree that at 22 I'm excited to make a new friend but I have to be honest things have been pretty quiet since I moved into my ( Read more... )

AHHHH another snow storm............... So I was at kaiser getting my perscription filled from my dr and it took 2 hours!!! YEA LONG LONG LINE. There is no more food in the grocery stores as in zip nadda nix....................... yea it's crazy ( Read more... )

I'm having a really hard time with this breakup.... it's probably the break up that has hit me hardest. I guess cause most every break up I was in control of and this time I'm not ( Read more... )

Okay so thanksgiving has always been a warm and loving holiday for me. I've loved getting together with family and eating too much. However this holiday I did not like what I recieved. My grandmother passed away what seems to be only months ago but in reality we are approaching two years. However during my grandma's funeral my grandpa met someone ( Read more... )

I'm feeling like I lack the skills to make and connect with people in meaningful relationships.... I'm too afraid of getting hurt

I've recently felt that I don't need LJ anymore mostly because I feel so distant from all of my friends. I guess it took a bit of shattering for me to come to my senses. I have had many friends that I have avoid and mistreated in the years so much so that when the one person I have put my trust and life into for six month disapointed me and stabbed ( Read more... )

This seeming distant seems to be arriving between my parents and I, it's an unspoken thing and really it's a problem between my father and I. He is having some issues with me becoming an adult and speaking with me as I am an adult. Although I'm pretty sure my dad has issues talking to most people like they are adults. I am looking into new condo's ( Read more... )

Okay so maybe I shouldn't let things get to me like I do. But for the past like 3 weeks if I got home before my dad did it seems like it ends in a fight. He treats me like crap... he says I'm talking down to him. The only way I would be talking down to him is the fact that I'm trying to stay calm and carry out a conversation and he's yelling and it ( Read more... )

So I'm looking at buying myself a condo... It's two bedrooms one bath and needs to be cleaned up but otherwise in great condtion. I'm very excited because well I will own it rather then renting it. My very own place. I am currently looking for a reliable person that might want to rent a room and be my roomate for about 250-300 a month including all ( Read more... )