i think when it comes down to it
the fact is there.

his laugh is probably one contagious things i have ever heard.
and i can see him never failing to be able to make me smile. never ever.

i swear i fell for him the first time i saw him walk through the door.
but i don't know if he will ever know.

i don't want to go back to school. at all. something happened today. it's probably stupid. but it was a complete slap in my face. from someone who was supposed to be a friend. and it has just kind of put me over the edge. i used to have friends there. a lot of them. but some of them i feel just don't appreciate me. some of them i feel i ( Read more... )

my mother said this morning that she has been defeated. she has never said this before. she has been to hell and back many times, yet she has never ever admitted defeat. it's funny how when my mothers hope is gone, mine is immediatly diminished. but i am still trying to hold onto what small amount there is left. i can see that my dad still has ( Read more... )

this song makes me realize just how there is something very substantial lacking in my life. there is an emptiness here that i don't see being filled anytime soon. but i think this song makes me realize why it is important to just wait it out, and not settle for anything less than love.

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky ( Read more... )

it has been a year since my friend michele died of cancer, so i guess i have been thinking about her a lot lately. i woke up this morning at 4:30, and couldn't go back to sleep after a dream i had. it was me in the dream looking at a picture of michele. something told me in the dream that the picture was of michele after she had passed on, in ( Read more... )

so apparently we are moving into a 3 bedroom house meaning i won't have a room. so i don't know exactly what it is i am supposed to do over the summer or break or weekends that i just choose to come home ( Read more... )

( bored OBVI )

honestly...i really don't care if we leave hopkinton. actually...i want to leave hopkinton. and there are probably few people who i will even bother to come back to ( Read more... )

so there is a good chance i might very soon be living here.

and i think i would be ok with that.  this house is nicer than the ( Read more... )

while going through the quiet living room that had a few hours ago been a bomb shell of gift wrap and boxes i found something on the coffee table. it was a card from my dad to my mom. my parents decided not to exchange gifts this year as they are trying to buy a house. so there was just this card. it said on the front..."i made a long list of ( Read more... )