( i miss my dog and its just one of those days )

whoa for posting twice in one day.

but while speeding through a yellow light to try and beat the red in my banged up party probe...and at the same time drinking an iced coffee from a boston red sox cup i came to a conclusion...i am a true masshole at heart...and it is too late to try and be any different. but you know what? i'm perfectly ok with

more often than not, people's sincere, honest feelings get the best of me, and i respond by distancing myself and chances are hurting the person. if i have ever done this to you, i am truly truly sorry, and you can rest assured that it has been eating at my conscience. i have been raised by two people who grew up in houses of extreme mental and ( Read more... )

it's funny how i find myself in this room every night with my computer...and my laptop playing my music. is it wrong that i can i can honestly just sit in front of this computer for hours and not think anything of it ( Read more... )

i do believe the greatest kind of therapy is offroading through the nursery. sweeeeeet.

my insecurities get the best of me.

no one likes an insecure girl.

k. pissed beyond belief because i had to take my bellybutton ring out. i decided that my physical well being is probably more important than making a fashion statement. i am beginning to wonder if it was really me anyways. probably serves me right for doing something i have been against doing for quite some time.

i was hoping today would be better...i'ts mother's day, we have company coming over. but it's just not. my mother came into my room this morning crying with a bunch of pictures of sam. there is one of sam and my mom and he is leaned over to her giving her a kiss. there is also some of him smiling and one with his mouth so wide open it looks ( Read more... )

my eyes hurt. they are puffy and swollen. and my head hurts too. i'm not ready for him to be gone. it was too soon...too sudden. i'm not ready for him to no longer be waiting for me at the door when i come home. i'm not ready for there to be no 110 pound dog running all over the upstairs and jumping into my bed when there is a thunder storm ( Read more... )

i am sitting in a dorm room shared by what started out to be two strangers, but now two individuals who have learned to depend on each other and look out for each other no matter what. these 4 walls, these family pictures, posters, books, tapestries all once surrounded me as i cried tears of lonliness and fear, but now i look around me and i am ( Read more... )