i'm covered in sand. it's inbetween my toes. I hate that. The beach was fun, cept... well i was driven insain, with the combination of no food, too many girls, and thinking about rob. Ashley didn't end up comming ( Read more... )

So even though my mind is allways racing with Rob, I couldn't just sit around and be misserable for the entire 5 day weekend. So i've been finding all sorts of things to do ( Read more... )

We slept in this room together, but now you're gone ( Read more... )

yucky
i miss him
everything pissed me off today
girls cause drama, no wonder i used to drown myself in Rob
ashley may be comming over tongiht, my love!!!
maybe today'll get better
when i stop feeling nautcious

slow, slow day.
interview went good.
dinner with dad was okay.
guilted my sister into confessing all kinds of things to my mom.
orange chicken.
rented some movies, hope i will laugh myself to sleep iinstead of crying.

absence makes the heart grow fonder

oooorrr.... "absenth makes the art grow fonder" Quote from my writing professor

the sky wasn't as blue
the sun wasn't as warm
the flowers didn't smell as sweet
but at least the fucking thorn isn't in my finger.

why am i so sure and he isn't
why am i postponing the inevidable
it's been comming for a while, but i am selfishly trying to hold on
in the end i have to let him go

this is why i can't sleep, because i feel like the hardest thing in my whole life is comming.

Seasonale! YES! Pink streaks. Condoms. Cosmo. Buzz. Stamps. Meghan. Abby. Coffee. 3 $ earings. Rob. HAnd and foot. Chapstick. Visa debit. Spaghetti. few kisses. Toddlers. Pizza. Jenny on a plate. Slice. Sprinkle. Eat. giggle. Happy birthday. "I want to sit on your lap" Telephone. Hello. Hello. Hello. Makeup. Haircut. "look good Jenny". ( Read more... )

So even though the school day sucked, rob and I had a wonderful valentines day. Great presents, amazing handmade card, and an incredible night. It felt good to laugh, and roll around, wresteling in his bed. And that danm smile he gives me whenever he relizes just how lucky we are... what else could i ask for in a valentine?

why is the most important lesson, that of following orders. Why the hell does an art school aim for policy instead of creative solutions? When we are all about to graduate, why don't they give us more freedom? What is the lesson we are supposed to be tought? "Life sucks, and you have no control over it"??? This seems absolutely ridiculous. Its ( Read more... )