i think that i'll move next year
i'm getting my life together and next year i'm fleeing
i don't know where to
i'll figure it out
it'll be somewhere nice
where people aren't so rude, have manors and hospitality
where people don't breathe down your neck
where theres tuns of sunlight, beautiful scenery, and green grass
i'm thinking the south sounds nice

anyone ( Read more... )

i starve to death with connections i've made

hope you can hear me and my dying voice
screaming out "it's not me i'm not the one"

i knew when i lost it. 
i lost you. 
its been years is this my way of saying. 
sorry i pushed you too far? 
i need to lose this edge and clear my head

pick up the phone
and answer me at last
today i will step out of your past

i've been doing so well this semester ( Read more... )

tophy: well kris
maybe since the bag is suffocating you...
maybe its time to throw it away.
or at least put it back into the cabinet until the bag realizes no to go over your face,
or until the child gets older

me: i've been poking holes in it

tophy: you've poked holes in it!?
krista...
now no one can use the bag.
just so you know, once you throw it away ( Read more... )

last night was amazingly entertaining
eddy chased someone down the stairs and almost peed his pants
there were fits of laughter
lots of prank calls
and then there was brian wilson
lots of movies and documentaries
very  interesting
oh and random cuddling and attacking heidi
oh yeah... and no sleep!

yay for waking up skanky and tired
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the weekend started off a tad bit random
went to sholiver's (?) for the first time
interesting...
kinda outta place a bit tho

ended up watching dazed and confused a total of 3 times in a matter of 2 days
and watched teenage mutan ninja turtles with dirty
he helped brighten up my day

unfortunately the weekend wasn't long enough
i didn't get anything ( Read more... )

i really wanna go to some thirft stores
and buy old clothes
maybe 60's & 70's style
have some friends dress up
make a big photoshoot outta it
but in the spring of course
half inside
half out
records on the floor
with the glowing yellow sun

marvelous!?

i think so

so i really miss my hair
not that i'm bald or anything

just that i miss it

i miss how heavy it felt
the length
how i could cover and warm my shoulders with it
how it would blow with the wind

it was beautiful
it had never been dyed
it was natural and perfect

missing this also makes me miss the warm summers

the sun beating down on me
music stiring in the wind

i ( Read more... )

i listened to feel flows tonight
on my back, on my floor
with borrowed headphones
and only the light of a candle

it was purely amazing

almost all worry and pain disappeared
but only for that short moment of serenity of the music

i feel changed and relieved
but still worried and unsure

My hope for spring, warm weather, and happiness to appear came when I saw a group of robins.
I figured that Spring had to be around the corner, that or they were severely confused.
That hope was dashed in the same day, when I walked back by.
There in the snow was a robin, frozen, lifeless.
All hope and joy just seemed to vanish.....

That was a few weeks ( Read more... )