i've seen what hes written to her

i know how he acts with her
what hes said, what hes done....

its all the exact same.

i was the fool

 recall senses sadly

prolly not.

i don't know what i'm doing
i don't know where i want to be
i don't know who i'm gonna be
i don't know what i want

but then again i do

i want to be happy
i want to be stable
i want to be at peace
i want to be free

but i don't know where that road is

i'm stuck in a damn maze...
then i started thinking...

i kinda know what i want in life, but then ( Read more... )

it has been the most amazing weekend in such a long time

i'm so glad
i needed it more than anything
i just wish it could last a bit longer

this was the best weekend of my life...
THE best.

it was pretty sweet, until i pulled into my driveway.

how can so much negativity be produced in one house hold?
i want to be free of ties and negitivity.
no one to continuously nag and degrade.

how hard is it to decide that the day is grand and let it be?

i just want have a lil sun on my face, a breeze ( Read more... )

so apparently i have a twin
not only do we resemble each other....
we've had the same odd experinces

such as being electricuted
yup! both at the age of about 6

did i mention we both act alike?

everyone asked us today at work if we were sisters

birthdays are fairly close too...
to bad she was born in germany.

i've got so many ideas, plans...
things i know that need to be done and want to be done
nothing ever goes through or happens
or if it does get started...
it turns out so differently

maybe my dad is right....
its all my fault.

i'm finally realizing so much. i know what i need to do, but not quite how to do it. i'm so unsure on many things. yet theres so many that i think i'm positive about. its remarkable how many things you can realize at once. many of these things are due to others. because of their experiences, their advice, their lives. maybe because i'm starting to ( Read more... )

i'm looking for any...

any that will get me out of and away from my house
its too crazed
everyone is at the brink of being mental and deranged
i'm only seen as a child there
a child with too many responsibilities
i'd have less if i were out on my own

i'm almost praying that there will be a break down
i can't stay there
i won't

i'd rather live with my ( Read more... )