im completely worthless. i woke up to see him drive away. one of the people i really need to see & i cant now.

doctors appointment tomorrow. i get to see the baby! then im moving out & packing more. doing laundery. and 6 am flight on saturday. ick. see stephen on friday and hopefully a few other people. yay. the only bad thing is that im not going to get to see everyone id like to before leaving. but i do get to see lisa before she sets out on her 6 month ( Read more... )

i love the hopeful quiet peace that comes with the rain. i want to walk for miles until i cant walk anymore, collapse on the ground. exhausted. happy ( Read more... )

its always nice to see the maturity of others.

i will no longer respond to negative comments.

Jes ( Read more... )

my arm is numb and tingly, i cant close my hand into a fist. im tired of my shitty circulation. and i hate not being able to do what i love without the pain. i cant draw of sew or knit for much longer than an hour with out it starting. but i still love it so that must count for something. im to young for this.

once again i dont get to see nathan before i leave, or even talk to him. i hate my fucking parents. its for "his own good" what about my own good? hes stronger than they think. he doesnt know about my little hitchhiker or that im moving on saturday. i fucking hate this.

what if there's two?

JailBreakMyHeart: touch my boyfriend again and i'll stab you whether your pregnant or not.

message from an exlover's girlfriend after she told me to give up the kid. he lives in boston. it was 9 months ago. in all likelyhood well never see eachother again. just another shitty thing.

i hope im doing the right thing. id like a chance to explain myself better because i do have reasons. good reasons. i wrote an email this morning saying when he was ready to call me. hopefully he will. if not life will go on and ill have to do things the hard way. and if necessary i will do this the hard way ( Read more... )