...make that four fainting spells in two days. Wow. The doctor gave me some Lorazepam awhile back and I've been hesitant to take any because it's supposedly rather addictive, but now I'm desperately desperate. Might give that a try tomorrow. Gotta take the edge off somehow ( Read more... )

I've managed to pass out three times in the past two days from over-worrying about moving and finding a job and stuff, presumably. I'm now convinced it's a stress-related problem. At least I get the day off to relax - turns out it's too snowy out to go anywhere, so I'm staying home. The first order of business? After finishing this, it's time for a ( Read more... )

Y'know....it's oddly thrilling to have someone bugging me to update ( Read more... )

So, apparently, if I want to see a psychiatrist without actually admitting myself to a mental hospital (my absolute last resort), it's a six month wait. How obnoxious ( Read more... )

This Thursday shall be my first appointment with the counselor in several weeks. And...I'm mostly just going to be using it to get her recommendation of a good psychiatrist to see. She's a nice person - of the sort I would honestly enjoy interacting with outside of therapy - but by this point I'm sure we both know my problems are beyond the scope ( Read more... )

I'm still not sure if I'm getting any better or not. For every moment where it seems I'm making genuine progress - like, say, heading out to the grocery store today and making it through okay - there's a moment where I react even worse than I did before - like, say, breaking out into a sweat of absolute, undiluted horror whilst attempting to enjoy ( Read more... )

Ok(k)ay, so, like, I feel like something is seriously wrong with me. Like, moreso than I had thought. I...just can't seem to be happy. Ever. Things can be pleasant, and amuse me on a temporary basis, but nothing seems to fully reverse the mood scale. The fact that I still felt lousy for the majority of what should've been thoroughly enjoyable ( Read more... )

Tomorrow morning, I leave for the aforementioned short vacation in Bozeman. I keep alternating between being excited about it, and dreading it. Here's hoping I can make it through okay, as I recently had a rather embarrassing public panic attack a few days ago. I'm gonna take a stab at making the most of it, though. So, um...I probably won't be ( Read more... )

My grandma has developed this weird habit lately of inserting completely unconvincing arguments toward the existance of God into completely unrelated conversations, and generally mentioning God at pretty much every opportunity she can grasp at. Clearly, my atheism is really eating her up, but this is just ridiculous. I mean, I like milk as much as ( Read more... )

Good morning! Having trouble sleeping again - my neighbors have taken the initiative of purchasing a rather loud bug zapper. I'll get used to it eventually, but for now, it's annoying as fuck ( Read more... )