Ahhahahah. I remember this game. Not so much a game, but also very much one. If you don't understand that you don't need to. I thought I had it all, but this one person kept popping back up in my life and causing all kinds of chaos for me at the time. Now, even back then I didn't think it was a fair judgement, and I argued this point for a long ( Read more... )

Hard to believe another year has gone by. 2010 was a weird year. A sad year. A good year. Heartbreak, friendship, sex, drugs, rock and roll. Started off pretty good, took some serious unplanned dips into depression and hating my life, but in the months coming up to the new year, things have started to trend back upwards. Living here in a fantastic ( Read more... )

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck man.

Is there a point because if so I think I'm missing it.

Just....FUCK IT!!!!!

Fuck no. Go for broke ( Read more... )

Now what. Reading through all my old entries on here I feel sorry for the guy back in '06 and '07 and '08. If only he knew how little forward motion he would make by mid '10. Heartbreak? Check. Bouncing from unfulfilling job to unfulfilling job? Check. Loss of motivation, purpose, drive, and an overwhelming sense of apathy? Check. Bitter, whiny, ( Read more... )

Vacant, blank, these are his eyes. There's a hollowness that resonates from somewhere deep within, but when you truly lose yourself in them you can see! You can see there is nothing behind them but more flat empty nothingness. He sits. Uncomfortable but nothing to do about that but call the army of tiny white soldiers with their tiny little ( Read more... )

Hello LiveJournal. I return to you after two years, and not to post something for the masses. Not to entertain or titillate the public, I'm back with a personal message ( Read more... )

Nights are the worst. The side of the bed you should be sleeping on is cool to the touch. I find myself reaching out for you, searching in that space between awake and asleep, grasping at what can't be found. Its hard, realizing you aren't here, you are so far away. I can't smell you anymore, I'm forgetting the scent of your hair on your pillow. I ( Read more... )

You look so good standing next to me. The last time I saw you was in a train station. It was cold, or at least thats how I felt. You looked so small then, so helpless and sad. I wanted to pick you up and hug you until you became a part of me. You looked so good through your tears, so beautiful and tragic. I hate to see you cry, but I love to marvel ( Read more... )

Tell 'em God just dropped by to relieve our sins, and forgive us our doubts ( Read more... )