i'm leaving for NY on the 4th. i wasn't going to tell anyone, but then i accidently told the couple people i was really trying not to tell, so yup. i'll be going to some yankees games, maybe catch MLIW and these days and LLT on friday, but who knows. i'm tryin' to hang out with julia before i leave for NY...idunno god, i can't let go. i really do ( Read more... )

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where is my life?

i wasn't going to go to the show saturday, to just walk away from the thing that makes me feel awful for a while (not shows, the girl at the shows) but david final fight (watch your feet! it's name dropping time!)told me he's coming up, and knox said if i didn't come cause of a girl he was going to walk up here, beat my ass and drag me down, and ( Read more... )

i'm sick of too many feelings i created for myself all on my own. now i get to deal with them all on my own. whatever, on my own has been my slogan since day one. my parents still call me Jesse "learn it the hard way" Miller-Gordon (no joke).like i said earlier, hardcore shows are letting me down. i used to have this notion, this belief, that ( Read more... )

yeah, that's what i'd like to be feeling...fuck this. i don't have any faith in the healing powers of hardcore anymore. i used to go to shows and feel better and forget about shit...but now that i have everything invested in it, it just makes me feel worse. kids piss me off, girls make me sad, and the music can only take my scrawny structure so far ( Read more... )

lets travel around the world just you and me...spent the night at geoffs, it was insane, and just what i needed. we drove around yelling at eachother listening to no doubt and terror, being assholes, it was great ( Read more... )

i played poker from 7pm until 3:30 am...and broke even. at one point i was fifty bucks up, but you can't pull until you win everything in a tourni...at least i got second, whatever...nothing really new is up. bye.

i'm really bored, doing my driving stuff is tedious as fuck. waiting for julia to call me back, haven't really talked to her in a long while, drinking coke, being jittery. ah, young, frustraited, in love...this is how good songs are born

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