so i'm pretty sick, it feels like i got socked in the throat...as i'm sure i've informed anyone i've talked to...aside from my throat and upper chest i'm totally fine though, so whatever. even when kids talk you up to normalcy, it doesn't take very long to sleep back into whever you just were. i just keep getting more and more vague, don't i?

tonight felt awful, i don't really want to go to sink with cali anymore

so i walked down to gilman despite myself. better judgement would have seen me at home pissed at the world and sad at my predicament, but it seems that even shitty gamblers get payoffs against the odds. scott put me on his spot too, so that was extra insentive (free mosh? why not!) so i got down there expecting the worst, and ended up being ( Read more... )

it's funny how some feelings grow and some feelings fade, and all it takes is time. remembering things that happened only a couple months ago, then looking at the way things are now is a real trip. knowing what could have been done differently is the ugly side of hindsight. either way, it feels bad to know that things aren't the same, and some ( Read more... )

you've seen the away messege, now peep the lyrics that go with it...i wrote em the other day ( Read more... )

it's the wee small hours of the morning, and i'm too tired to really have a mood. what is tired? it's not a mood, it's just a feeling i guess...whatever. so mental kids did some sketchy ass shit in redding and everyone bummed/talking, what's fucking new about this picture?!! seriously? who cares? i'm sure it was shady and it sucked, but they're ( Read more... )

my mom has always been better at socializing then me...i get the feeling she was a popular girl in school, and in her younger life on whole. i've been really unpopular in the past...at first i was just annoying and not cool. i was a fuckin' nerd. in elementry school i got left out alot, led on alot, and didn't really learn how to make friends, or ( Read more... )

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you'll never see those stupid entries again...they sound all creepy and shit, that ain't me. shit isn't that bad...i may have self esteem issues, but there are kids that like me and are there for me, so no matter what happens i got some kids watching my back. i still feel what i feel, but there are better/more constructive ways to say and do things ( Read more... )

...i was wrong! things can feel worse!