The undressed truth

[jessi_mo]

This time I'm not going to wrap it up in pretty ribbons or use cryptic sentences to avoid hurting people, because those people have already been hurt, will be hurt again, and will simply be even more hurt if I keep on trying to disguise it.
I started to write this in late November, and have re-written it almost every night since... I still haven't

Comments

[soph]

I've just read this whole post. For some reason it didn't show up in my email - I'm guessing you posted it backdated at first. However, I saw this after seeing your latest post that I replied to not long ago.

I can tell that you're sorry, I really can. And you may find this surprising, but I believe you. And I forgive you; totally, completely. I am not angry.

Of course, I never knew Arjay before I had heard that she was dead, so I don't know how much that forgiveness will mean to you. But please know that I'm still here, and I'm still with you.

I think you've done a big thing here, and I'm proud of you. It must have taken real guts to push that "Post" button on it, and I think you did yourself proud there.

Let's talk, Jessi. I'm here and I'm ready to help you work all this out, and I'll stick with you. Seriously.

[anonymous]

I knew AJ and while it hurt thinking she was dead, I can forgive you for what you said. And I've been worried about you since you vanished to format. I'm glad AJ's alive after all but now I'm more worried for you. Ciaran has a point - you should be able to talk to someone if you need to. Just letting you know that people do care and are willing to listen when you want it, okay?

[jessi_mo]

Who are you?

[anonymous]

Jessi, I see you're up at late again. Ciaran caught me on my way back to bed to say you'd asked - it's Data. Still have your name on MSN, if you ever want to talk, okay? It's up to you

[anonymous]

so this is the facts? you have mentioned mud and multiple chat rooms and going through the address book on my phone and reading my diary... from all of these people do you really think all of them subscribe to your live journal? have you even been back to the mud or the chat room and talked to people personally? or did you just expect that you could write on your live journal and everything would be all right? just because two people who didn't even know me forgave you for everything doesn't stop the fact that there are many more than those two people who didn't forgive you.

[soph]

I assume I'm one of the two people you're referring to, because I did forgive her. And yes, you're right; I didn't know you, which is a shame. I'd like to get to know you, though, if you're willing to talk about things.

My contact details are in my profile if you're willing to talk. :)

[jessi_mo]

Of course I don't expect that everything is alright, I mentioned in the entry that the post changed nothing. Please let me talk to you IRL so we can sort this out without a public audience.

And by the way, Data did know you.

Can't wait to have my say

[anonymous]

Hi - I am certainly delighted to discover this. Good job!