This is just like the Oscars..my rejection speech. I should have been like those pretentious filmmakers who win and then whip out a five hundred foot piece of parchment and regurgitate their pre-written speech. Needless to say, I am not prepared. Pardon me while I ramble. And please wait till I'm done to cue the music ( Read more... )

Apparently I am forgettable. So just in case, 1 866 43657 02. Ahem.

And just because....

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No, I haven't died off, though right about now that seems like a most comfortable fate. There is a montage playing in my mind to the tune of some sappy Boyz II Men song and when I close my eyes it just gets worse. Nobody ever said this show was going to be easy. I just never thought I would let the process get to me as much as it has these past ( Read more... )

I'm not going to use any harsh words or rant about how upset I am. Instead, I'll just say I love you, Mario, and I hope that you find happiness in this decision. This competition is pretty rough, and there is no sense in sticking around if it makes you unhappy.

So Bon Voyage, Maria. I hope you stick around here at least.

So some gem of a human being bought me a paid account. Once I figure out who you are, you will be compensated accordingly. ;* Hopefully this doesn't jinx my chances of making it past the first elimination ( Read more... )

I think it is no longer necessary for me to hide that fact that I have been sneaking some of Mikalah's crack. Sweet Jesus...

I am not looking forward to tomorrow night. I don't like dwelling on things that are beyond my control. Que sera sera and all that. But that being said, it is hard to ignore the churning in my stomach.

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I guess the purpose of keeping a journal is to write in it. It's now obvious that I'm not able to live up to the task. Generally, journaling requires you to have something to write about, something you'd think I wouldn't be lacking. Clearly, appearances can be deceiving ( Read more... )

I suppose now is as good a time as any to update. That is, if livejournal will let me.

So, first performance, done. I was more than a little nervous, but I think everyone was to some degree. I'd say VOTE FOR ME!!!1!1one! but I figure if you are, you'd have done it already. That, and this window has been sitting open untouched for so long that it' ( Read more... )

if this is just a little slice of what is to come, i hope this competition never ends. i feel like i need some sort of home-made graphic to make this entry official. sadly, i have not the skill nor the ability that both Mario and Connie have. maybe one of them will take pity on me so i don't feel left out ( Read more... )

i'm not exactly sure what i'm doing here. i'm sure it won't be long before i am booted off like i was on star search. my life is full of disappointment, so i'm sure i'll bounce back just fine. but i fully intend on taking advantage of the opportunity that i've been given. i've been loving every minute of it so far ( Read more... )