Sorry to those of you to whom I've been a terrible friend. I feel like I'm drowning. If only I could get my new place put in order and cleaned up. I got the shitty cold and feel crappy. I go to school at 7:30 every morning and am lucky if I make it home (after school and 2 jobs) by 7:30 any weekday night. I'm exhausted. I feel terrible that I ( Read more... )

Officially medicated...again. Spent most of today sick, laying in bed groaning. Hopefully side effect will ease soon, allowinng me to be normal/happy. Dad is gone, and Mother is going to Alaska, leaving me to fend for myself for a whole week. Luckily, Julie seems to be warming up to me, as she even called to invite me to dinner with her and ( Read more... )

Rough time...relapsed a little, don't want to talk about it. Major breakdown, have gotten better though. This is the first major breakdown I've had in 2 months. Out of meds, may need to go to psychiatrist for more. Not too bad though, took me 1 year to finish 20 doses, meaning only 21 major breakdowns in 1 year. And only 5 in in the past 5 ( Read more... )

Sometimes I forget this isn't exactly a private journal, that someone can stumble across it on the internet. And I realize that I could make it "friends only", but I've met some interesting people because they stumbled across my journal. And sometimes people do stumble, read, and then get hurt. So, to those who got hurt, I'm sorry. Now, how do ( Read more... )

Well, my finals week, and therefore my school year draws, yet again, to a close. So many things accomplished, so many things not so accomplished. Writing goals for the summer, as so many summers are generally wasted sleeping in, pondering worthwhile activities such as organizing house and attempting to obtain a perfect body through diet and ( Read more... )

note to self: in school/work jessica doesn't play well with others. she likes to do things herself and is resistant to even the most constructive criticism. and then, after not working with others, she feels bitter and used because she did all the work...

1. What kind of person do you want to be ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted from prefinals stress and post first date drama. Basically put myself in a position that no matter what I do, I will hurt someone, which sucks. So have decided that I will do what won't hurt me and hurts the least number of people. Other news: started prepping soil for garden. Have 4 interviews for internships (2 are at DTC, and ( Read more... )

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"To her belongs all that is beautiful, even the very word beauty itself...she is a doll...I'm sick of the masquerade ( Read more... )