so where are friends when you need them. how come theres no one to talk to anymore?

as wierd as everything is right now, i think everything its gonna work out okay.

It is 12:09 PM on Wednesay May 9,2007. I just finished editing my last paper. I have officially completed my Freshman year of college, and I don't feel anything but numb. I don't understand why. I should be happy. I'm nervous about going home. I'm afraid so much is going to change. And I'm sad to leave what I have here. Things are always ( Read more... )

Freshman year of college is almost over. It's been a long year. I'm trying to transfer. But things are great. I love life.

The ashtray says
You were up all night
When you went to bed
With your darkest mind
Your pillow wept
And covered your eyes
And you finally slept
While the sun caught fire

You've changed

What you once were isn't what you want to be any more
What I once was isn't what I want to be any more

I'm so fucking stupid sometimes. Why do I do these things?

I had my orientation yesterday for Ramapo. It was interesting, informative and boring at the same time. I made my schedule. I'm very pleased with it. On Mondays and Thursdays I have Engligsh 8:00-9:15 AM and Math 3:45-5:15. On Tuesday I have nothing all day until 6:00-9:15, when I have my freshman seminar, Wednesday I have Psych 11:30-2:45, ( Read more... )

I'm hungry, but nothing appeals to me. I keep walking downstairs and looking for food, but everything makes me feel sick. I end up coming back up here. I can't seem to stomach anything. The smell of chicken makes me nauseas. I do not know what to do about this. I'm hungry, but I can't eat. This has been going on for few days now. I would ( Read more... )

I graduated from high school yesterday. I don't know if it has hit me yet. I mean I started to really think about it yesterday on the way home from Graduation practice. Amanda had made a CD, and on it she put that song by Vitamin C, you know the one, it goes, "As we go on, we rememeber all the times we had together, and as our lives change come ( Read more... )

Haven't updated in over a month. Seems kind of trivial at this point. Well the past month was pretty fun. There was prom, which I surprisingly enough had a really good time at. I loved getting dressed up ( Read more... )