PostSecret Sunday... I'd like to share a secret with you.
I party every weekend to forget how alone I really am. I'm terrified of not being social and turning into the hermit I was for so long. It's not that I don't feel the same as I did then, I just care a bit more about my own well being.

Ended up reconciling with Christine. Hung out with her and Chelsey, said my goodbyes to Sierra who moved this past Wednesday ( Read more... )

Such a long one.
( Winter Break. )

Tila picked Bobby ( Read more... )

I feel disgusting. Honestly, not drinking anymore. I know I said it Friday and stuck to it, and attempted it on Saturday, and I would have stuck to it if Christine didn't challenge me to drink a shot without a chaser ( Read more... )

I'm at the threshold of my life, I have a decision to make and I don't know what I want to do from here. I have choices, and I have opportunities and I never want to regret anything.

I think I'm going to go to Paris in June to study abroad.

Hmmm okay. Where I left off was Tuesday. I don't really remember the week because I didn't go to school until Friday. Christine and I started our night with David and Matt at my house, went to In n Out, then Scandia for awhile, and finally went to Jayk's to smoke hookah. Christine was out of her mind, so I drove to Ed's and we chilled and I had a ( Read more... )

So back to what happened Wednesday. We started out at stupid F park with Gianna, Pin, Dutz, Seth, Matt and Ben, and it was fucking freezing. I saw Tshawn too. Then Christine and I ended up at Ed's with David who got left by the group we were with earlier, and we left after I had about 6 shots to go to Teejay's. I had Jager, Smirnoff and Tattoo. Yum ( Read more... )

I need to get this out before I forget how I feel.
I think I ruined it. I think I ruined everything with Teejay tonight by what we did. I don't know where it's going from here, if it is actually but jeez. I wish I could fix this.
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I went to Chico on Friday, until Sunday. Basically just chilled, drove around, bought an adorable dress. Came home Sunday, and hung out with Teejay, Ryan and Christine that night. Christine left to go to Mikes house, and I cuddled with Teejay which was cute. He got mad at me though, and then ditched out on our plans but whatever ( Read more... )